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Chapter 9

I doodled in my notebook, drawing little clouds and turtles, my latest doodling obsession. It's only second period, but it felt like forever. I don't know how many times I can say this but I don't want to fucking be here.

Ambrose sat next to me, and even though we spent our time passing notes throughout class, I still made sure to pay attention and copy down everything I needed. Ambrose did minimal work, mainly just passing notes with me or spacing out. Even though school had already started before we got here, and they were just about a month in, the topics they covered were relatively easy as both me and Ambrose had covered them on our own time.

This class, we were preparing for an upcoming test, which the teacher had written and gone over notes that I'd copied down.

I was currently in math right now, and I'd already finished the work 30 minutes into class, done the study guide and the homework for the next 20 minutes, and still had 15 minutes left to do whatever.

I spent a few minutes bothering Ambrose and eating a lollipop, but it was still not enough to keep me preoccupied.

I think whoever created school should get jumped and go to hell. Literally.

Sighing, I laid my head down and closed my eyes. Surprisingly no one has realized that I'm deaf, so I'm still waiting for that. Everyone has, unsurprisingly, found out about my relation to the Vinetti's. It spread like wildfire throughout the school, and by the time first period was over, everyone had already found out about my existence and the rumors had already started. People were talking about where I came from, why they hadn't heard of me before, why am I just turning up now, ect..

People are really bad at whispering. Either that or they just don't care.

I plan on skipping at least one class today, because I can't stand being around so many people. Inevitably, Ambrose would skip with me, unless my mood somehow magically changed and I decided to stay. I doubt that would happen though.

When the last few minutes of this class went by and it was time to switch, instead of following Ambrose to our third class of the day, I tugged his sleeve and led him the opposite way. Ambrose, already knowing not to fight, just followed in suit and I led him to the hall where the bathrooms were.

I didn't plan on going to the bathroom though. Near there, there was the janitors closet, storage room, supply closet, and the stairs to the roof. I made my way to the door to the stairway to the roof. It was locked, but in less than a minutes it was open thanks to my brilliant lock-picking skills.

"Isn't it a little cold to be out on the roof?" Ambrose said, "You gonna get sick." He pointed out like I didn't already know that. I ignored his remark and continued up the stairs. Since we were on the second floor, we had to climb 4 flights, as the school had 6 floors.

Pushing open the door to the roof, I made my way towards the wall to the left of me, sitting and leaning against it. I wouldn't go to the edge, because that'd risk someone seeing me. I just wanted to feel the cool air. It was a chilly morning of 57 degrees.

"So," Ambrose started. "You seem frustrated."

"No shit." I say immediately and he gasps, holding a hand to his heart. "No need to be a meanie to me, I'm not the one who made you live with your brothers." He said. I gave him a tired look. He sighed before walking towards me and sitting beside me. I laid my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes.

"You wanna take a nap? I'm right here." He said and I shook my head no, fighting away the sleep.

AMBROSE'S POV

I felt her shake her head no, but in a few seconds I felt her breathing slow and knew she fell asleep.

I don't understand why things are like this. Her whole life is one painful experience after the other. It shouldn't have to be that way.