(Bachisagi) Sunflower's Melody

Chapter 9

Bachira locked himself in one of the stalls and shook his head violently. 'No.. it can't be, it couldn't have been. But.. I caught a glimpse of his hair even though Rin was in the way. And that voice.. I've known him long enough to distinguish his voice even in the midst of a noisy crowd. But why? Does he really like Rin? No. I mean why? Why should I care? I'm only his best friend... I don't have any right to feel this way.' He clenched his fist and started to tear up. 'Then why do I fucking care so much?!' He sat down and buried his face in his knees while sobbing. 'I know I don't have any right to feel this way, but still, I don't wanna lose you.. Yoichi.' The brunette stood up and slammed his fist into the wall. He was confused, puzzled, frustrated. He didn't understand his own feelings at all. And at that time he ended up feeling nothing but frustration.

He went outside the stall and fixed himself in the mirror, trying to hide the path which tears trailed across his cheeks. Looking down, he went straight to his class, apologized for being late and sat down his seat not lifting his gaze to face the raven haired boy behind him. "Psst.. Meguru, you okay? Is your fever all better?" Isagi asked his friend. "Yeah I'm all good now, thanks for asking" He said not even turning back to look at Isagi in the eye, for he was afraid he'd notice that he'd been crying in the bathroom over him for the past few minutes. "Thanks for taking me care of me yesterday." Bachira said. "Of course! That's what friends are friends for." Meguru winced at that statement. 'Yeah.. friends.'

The day went by and all Bachira did was avoid Isagi. When lunch break came, Bachira saw Isagi go out and Bachira later decided he didn't have the appetite to eat lunch so he decided to walk outside for some fresh air. 'Maybe I imagined it and cried over nothing..' Bachira thought while staring at the blue sky above him. He sighed and convinced himself he imagined it and it was probably some other guy. He went towards the rooftop and when he got there, his thoughts were proven both wrong and right.

"Seriously?! And at our spot too?!?" He started to tear up again as he saw the same sight from earlier. But this time, Isagi was sitting against the wall and Rin was kissing him, but he was facing Bachira with the a smirk. Isagi pushed Rin away immediately "No!! Bachira wait!" He heard Isagi yell as he turned his back and started running once again. He ran as fast as he can to get as far away as possible. He had countless questions running through his mind at the same time, but it all went away when suddenly.. he tripped.

And he woke up.

The brunette stared at the ceiling, breathing heavily. 'What?' He asked himself. He sat up and checked his temperature. It didn't even go down a bit. 'What kind of dream was that?' He wondered and clenched his chest with his fist. He bit his lip trying to suppress the tears trying to rise up once more. He turned to his bed and saw wet marks on two sides of his pillow. "Was I crying in my sleep?" He didn't understand. He didn't want to feel the same frustration he felt in his dreams. But yet again, here he was, frustrated again for he didn't understand all the feelings at once. He gripped his hair and started to cry again. He dropped down on his bed, curling up and sobbing. 'I don't want to feel this feeling... But more importantly, what is this feeling?' The brunette was crying helplessly because of this unfamiliar feeling. 'It feels horrible.. It's as if my chest is tightening and my heart can't beat properly.. it's like I'm suffocating.' This feeling made everything confusing for Bachira. It made his thoughts messy and hard to decipher. But one thing was clear for sure. He understood one thing at that moment. 'I don't want to lose him. I don't want to lose you, Yoichi Isagi.' He never knew it would feel that way to lose his best friend. And he'd do anything to avoid that feeling.