A dark expression greeted me when I opened the front door of my apartment. Logan stormed inside and looked at me as if I killed someone dear to him. Marahan kong isinara ang pinto bago ko siya tiningnan nang mataman.
"What the fuck are you doing, Jianna?" He asked in his most dangerous voice.
Saglit akong huminga nang malalim bago naglakad palapit sa pinto ng kuwarto ni Zarha. I closed the door gently, not making any sound that would wake her up.
"I'm trying to protect my daughter, Logan." Pantay ang boses na sagot ko.
I can see how mad he was with what I answered him. Marahas na buntong-hininga ang kaniyang pinakawalan bago ako nilapitan at walang pasabing hinawakan nang mahigpit ang aking braso. It made me whimpered, I thought my bones snapped.
"No, you're not. You're just making things worst, Jianna!" Galit niyang sabi bago ako binitiwan.
I know why he's angry. When he left me at the hospital eight months ago, I immediately contacted Yvo and Kuya, asking for help. I lied to them saying the man who fathered my daughter was married and his wife's hunting me. They believed me and didn't ask any more questions. Umalis kami ng hospital nang hindi ko sinasabi kay Logan. Of course he'd be mad, because he promised me to bring Darth next time he visits so that we can talk about our responsibilities to Zarha. Maybe when he visited me again, he was greeted by an empty room.
I did my research. As I was browsing online I came across a website named Sierra. It was an organization that deals with criminals. I don't know anything more than that dahil may barrier na pumipigil sa akin para makita pa ang mas maraming article patungkol sa organisasyon. But then that didn't stop me from searching about the Haze Princes. I already did my research when I was still pregnant. Pero pahapyaw lamang iyon. This time, I got the chance to know more about the triplets. More importantly Darth Haze.
Tama nga ang desisyon kong itigil na ang paghahanap sa ama ng anak ko. Darth is a devil, a demon that kills his prey whenever he wanted. At palagi siyang nakakatakas sa mga mata ng batas. I don't know whether to believe those kind of statements or just brush them off. But there's also one thing I surely believed upon reading the other article about him; he's a total slut. A certified playboy, who fucks every girl that suits his taste. And lastly, he has a lot of enemies.
Because of those things I got online, I decided to really distance ourselves from him. Kung maaari ay itatago ko si Zarha. Or maybe we can go to some foreign country and live there peacefully.
Ang hindi ko maintindihan, bakit kailangang hanapin din ako ni Darth? Bakit nag-aaksaya ito ng panahon para lang malaman nito kung nasaan kami ni Zarha?
"Then what do you think is the best for Zarha? Live with your brother and put her life on the line? Logan, your brother is dangerous! Darth is a freaking demon!" Malakas kong sabi. Nakalimutan kong natutulog nga pala si Zarha. Huminga ako ng malalim para pakalmahin ang sarili. But then Logan also bursted out. He slammed his hands on the table where I usually prepare Zarha's milk. I gulped.
"You don't know him, Jianna." Mapanganib na wika ni Logan na lalo kong ikinalunok. He's mad—real mad. I can see fire in his eyes.
"That's why I don't want him near my daughter."
"Zarha's his daughter, Jianna! For fuck's sake can't you just let me bring him here and let the two of you talk? This is what you want, and—."
"It was, pero hindi na ngayon. I don't want him to meet my daughter...just yet." Muli akong huminga nang malalim. "Please understand where I'm coming from, Logan. Alam ko at mas lalong alam mo na mapanganib na tao ang kapatid mo. Paano kapag may nakaalam sa mga kaaway niya ang tungkol sa amin ni Zarha? Can't you see, I'm also trying to protect your brother for worst things that could happen." Although that only came from my mind just now, sinabi ko na lang rin para matapos na ang pag-uusap na ito. I have a lot of things to do, kasama na roon ang paglipat namin ni Zarha ng panibagong apartment.
