the wind rushed to whistle again, the death promises and forgotten plans are now in the grown burried with her ate, under the dark skies full of glowing stars and a enigma there she is, standing. the tenderness of every memory she have was giving her a reason to step forward but the lingers of every promises she shared with her ate was taking her back from where she was from the beginning.
"stop thinking about her, if she will know that you always grieving about her she will grab your hair. i swear" the voice of her brother taking her senses back, feels like inconceivable for her to move forward when the reminisce of her ate was still in her. how could she?? when the every step she make is just for her ate that even she doesn't want to involved her ate it always turned out that she needs. she needs imee.
"how could i bong" she sighed still looking at the cozy view outside, ventilated with the shinning stars from a far. the air that's touching her skin was giving her calm, all this time she fool herself that she moved on, that she was okay but all of that was just a lie because she was distracted.
"choose yourself sometimes, stop thinking about her. you need to move forward" a gasped came out from her, bong doesn't want to turned out that way but as he saw the reaction of irene she knew irene misunderstood it, irene was to devoted for loving imee that she started forgotten herself because loving imee is her nature.....in her mind.
"how could you say that bong!! for Christ sake he's your sister." her voice trembled with outrage hearing the words bong said, the exasperation running through her veins knowing that bong wasn't there when imee was fighting for her life.
"because you need to move forward irene!! for so many goddamn reason!! you need accept that imee was gone and she will never be here anymore don't let the past ruin you! ruin what you are now so please irene, be mature enough to handle this even for once" bong words stabbed irene hearts, irene doesn't expect any of this. the person she knew she could run or vent out was the reason why she want to run away right now to scream all the pain she's having right now, a tears dripped down from her face that even she's trying to stop it she can't. she feels like the all button inside her turned on because of bong words, how could her brother do this to her. irene feels like someone gun shoot her from the softest place in her body and the bullet was still there, engrained inside her body.
"did you think i didn't try bong?! god knows how the fuck i am trying to forget what happened and i know that god knows how i got traumatized after that night!! cause i was there, i'm the one who's holding imee. i'm the one who's desperately calling help for her. while you!!! where are youuu??!!! you are with claudia, where? to her house and what the fuck are you two doing? fucking eachother!!! isn't right bong" the aggravation was running through her bones like this a virus trying to kill her.
"what the fuck are you saying irene!!" bong fireback still concealing himself, they don't know what's happening between them. they shouldn't be arguing over the night where they got looped from the nightmare but it was too late because the enraged feeling of them was now toring them apart, trying to persuade eachother who's right or not.
"what the fuck i am saying?! i am saying that you aren't there when imee's fighting for her life because you are with your mistress while fucking her!!! is that what you want to hear bong" a slap landed on irene face, but irene was too numb already. too numb to feel that she has a brother, that she once had a brother.
"don't disrespect me, i am still your brother" the furious on bong eyes was visible, too visible that he didn't realize that he was talking to his sister. his sister that he should protect but how could he do that when he's the one who hurted her?
"not until the traces of your palm was now in my face" and as bong giving her the furious looks, irene did the same. the thoughts was thrown away and it replaced by the outrage running through their spine, veins, bloods and bones. they should be allies for eachother but why it seems like they abandoning the moments they shared.
"i did that to wake you up irene, i know what happened that night. i know the reason behind of all this bullshits. you can lie at me irene wherever you want but you can't lie at me that you are not the reason why imee was gone. you're not grieving because she's gone, you are grieving because your conscience was killing you till you just want to be with imee in heaven but sadly you had reservation sit in hell irene"
every word, every phrase and every vowels bong telling her feels like a knife stabbing her and a bullet that killing her, how could the person she think that can understand her was the one who's sending her the wrong allegation and accusations. how cruel it is
"fuck you bong!!! you don't know what happened that night, that was accident how many times do i need to tell you that. you aren't there because you come with your mistress than to come with imee, don't be such a ridiculous bong. you are nothing!! you are fucking nothing and if you aren't man with that dick i would gladly say you are useless, a cheater and a manipulative husband" and by that bong grabbed irene collar he still dumbfounded to realize that the woman he's grabbing was his sister but he doesn't know at all that he's starting to put a bomb inside irene.
"she die because of you Irene!! you are too stubborn. you act like a fucking kid and that imee got killed because of you"
"you've don't know everything bong!!! don't throw wrong allegations about me for christ sake. you aren't fucking there to witnessed everything and don't tell me i'm childish instead tell that to yourself because i know that even now you still secretly fucking Claudia"
"you didn't want liza to know that don't you" bong hissed still the frustration, anger, exasperation, spleen, wrath, pique or anything that can call the anger was still painted on her eyes as she's looking at his younger sister.
"don't make me hole cover for you goddamn grieving because of imee irene. you both too stubborn that cause you both to suffer like this" irene laughed as she's seeing the anxious bong infront of her.
it's feels like a win-win.
"i don't bong. i won't mess with your stupid decision you're the one who's ruining your family not me and probably not anyone but you. you deserve to suffer bong, suffer than more severe than how much i suffering right now because of my sister, only my sister."
"i am your brother irene"
"not until you made me realize that i don't"
