"please ate fight for me. i need you pleaseeee!!! fuck" a loud noises coming frow nowhere is all she can hear right now, the sobs that undeniable. the pain that's bruising around. the fresh dripped of the blood coming from her ate is all over in her clothes, the evidence of brokenness is painted on her face. the trembling hand trying to focus. the pounding heart and a races of breathe, she can't take this.
she can't take seeing her sister laying on the hospital bed fighting for her life "fuck do what you need to do!!! save my ate, save herrrr bullshit" she's hysterically yelling like she's the only one who's broken, who's shattered not minding those people who's looking at her. she didn't mind the blood on her sister in her body, she didn't mind anything but the life of her sister.
"Ma'am Calm down we're doing our best" one of the nurse dragged her outside, no this can't be she needs to be there beside her ate, she needs there!!
"no goddamitt!! she needs me there, let me goo fuck this!!! that's my fucking sister right there" she was broken, she was devastated. she's falling apart and she's aware thay her world will be fallen when her ate's gone
the contagious laugh replaced by the tears that keep flowing from her cheeks, the promises that they burried fiftyfeet ground was now slowly rising, the future they keep talking about was now fading by the blood in her body sign that she's broken and she's falling apart and she can't do about it but to watch her sister reviving by the people's around her.
she can't sight anything but her ate who's laying in the bed, she doesn't want to hear anything she was in deep thoughts hoping that her ate will survived, out of nowhere she don't care but she kneel, asking god to fight for her ate's life. she don't know what to do but to pray, she's kneeling infront of the room where her ate reviving.
for the first time again in her life, she prayed. but that wasn't take any longer when the door open holding the truth, holding the reality and future that might be happen. the news that will tear her apart or will saved her life from this brokenness.
the mr. white coat are now standing infront of her, but didn't utter any word as if he swallowed his tongue
"i need a word" she swallowed really hard but no one dare to talked making her frowned, she ran to where her ate are but the lifeless body of her sister welcomed her just enough to assume that imee was gone.
all of those shining stars in the sky aren't shining anymore, she was devastated and no one there for her that even bong, her brother wasn't there. she's the only one who's there, who witnessed how her ate suffered from fighting her life.
"god!! ateee please wake up i need you, i fucking need you don't be like this. come on!!! uwi na tayo. i need you with me. i'm afraid ateee i'm not used to be lonely i don't wanna be lonely, i want you with me manang" the tears that she was holding was now flowing down to her eyes, the trembling hands can't move anymore. the blood in her body feels like a bruised that will remain fresh even the day her hair gets white.
"ate. please uwi na tayo sa bahay ayokong mag isa"
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"hey honey, honey. honey are you okay" a shake from someone making her eyes open, she was dreaming. she still dreaming about her ate. the past that she tried to burry is still fresh to her memory and she knows in herself she would never forget how she begged god that night to bring back her ate, how she talked to lifeless body of her ate until she can't no longer talk anymore.
"are you okay" the man who's dearly loving her is the man who change everything, he fix those broken pieces of my heart and he's the only one who's willing to pick the pieces i left in the floor when i was busy cutting my own skin till my flesh can no longer see but he was there, he become the band aid of every scar i had, he gave me hope when i was hopeless with my life. he was there ready to understand me when i was no longer understandable. he love me when i can't no longer love myself.
i was broken yet he fix me, he help me and clean me from the blood that still in my body. he accepted me. the line that i wasn't sure enough, the flaws and the everything about me.
HE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME and he helped me to get through of this.
"i love you greggy i'm so lucky for having you"
"i love you too irene and i'm so grateful that i found you"
those sweet little smiles they pouring to eachother is undeniably perfect.
but sometimes perfect is a lie word for you to order to survive.
