unfinished vodka, unfinished half cigarette was now all over her place. she never drink when she has a problem before but things are different right now, the broken vases from her living room are now scattered everywhere, her bleeding foot was intucked of the blanket not minding if the white blanket has now the stain of blood from irene foot, the 6boxes of pizza spread all over her living room. everything was messy and if only someone came visit her they will assume that irene trying to kill herself as of now.
but Irene doesn't care anymore, she was devastated and loner. every lights are off except the lights that's producing by the tv, irene keeps strolling on Netflix trying to find something to watch but her blood boils when she can't find anything and out of exasperation she threw the remote in the TV causing it to break.
"stupid TV"
her half opened eyes look outside, the pain that causing by her bruised on her foot can't compare by the pain causing by her heart. she want to call yenny and tell everything but she can't because she threw her cellphone on her balcony and she's so sure that her phone was now in a crushing state. the gloomy sky outside making her giggle. it's dark and there's a rain pouring down.
"the sky imitating my heart"
she laughed so hard but that won't last because she found herself crying, how could she suffer from the pain she brought for herself. she's the one who made all of this and there's no one responsible to blame but her. irene herself deserve to blame from everything. she making things miserable for her life, she doesn't want to let go because she keep pushing herself she knew she wouldn't fit in.
how cruel is that.
"fuck!!!" she exclaimed before throwing the empty bottle of vodka, poor vodka.
the tears came down again from her face, she promise herself......she promise that she wouldn't cry again but things go further that she found herself kneeling infront of her couch while sobbing if only being dramatic has award she will probably conducting her speech now.
the unstoppable memories crossing to her mind over and over again like it's recalling everything how she crossed the line, how she stabbed someone with her words. if she only free herself from this she wouldn't suffer like this but she tried.....
she tried chasing greggy but it was now late because she broke greggy heart....really hard that it turn into pieces and now she couldn't think anything to gain back her man
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"you aren't supposed to be here" greggy facing another side of the bed not bothering herself to look at irene, he was devastated and surely broken from what happened and he knows he wasn't ready to face irene again because his love for irene was too strong that it will automatically painted on his eyes once he looked at his dearly love.
"i'm here because i want to" greggy want irene to apologize and admit what she had done, but irene didn't know how to apologize. ever since she was child she always apologizing for people but now, things are different. she can't form any words that will satisfy greggy.
"you can't get everything you want in just one snap irene. don't push our limits" greggy still not facing irene, the view outside was now deep in sleep to think because it's dark it was now look peaceful but because of what's happening right now they both can't think to appreciate the view roaring outside.
"i'm not pushing that's why i'm here Greggy to---" greggy cut her by meeting her gazes, their eyes puffed and reddish and it was a bit obvious that they cried. cried because of the pain they caused from eachother.
"to what irene" then irene sighed, she came here to gain back greggy but why greggy acting like this that he already move on in just minute.
"to.....say that you should say sorry" irene can't admit the fact that she wasn't right at this point. she need to face the consequence yet she still running away from the fact that she wasn't right
greggy on the other side was now fine, he just playing the game that he was really disappointed from what happened but god know he wasn't because he knows irene more than anything else, irene was just shocked and made everything out of her control. greggy knows every reason irene has was valid and her feelings was valid.
he wanted to hug irene already and cut her by crashing his lips into her but nah. he wanted irene to realize that not everytime she was right so he keep playing the game and acting like he was really disappointed even he knew he will be doomed after this.
"leave irene"
"what" irene shocked.
"gave me time to think"
"think for what i am here. we should be okay by now."
"hey you didn't say sorry"
"i would never say sorry greggy"
Greggy run his finger on his hair and frustratedly look at irene. "unbelievable" he muttered
"you know what noo!! be it. bye" then not any further irene leave without saying anything again, on the other hand greggy laughed and shook his head.
he knew what he was doing and he knew that he was the one who's getting into trouble for not accepting Irene apologize.....but is she really apologizing?
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irene eyes was now puffed and she was tired of crying. she wanted to took a sleep but she can't, her whole fucking sanity was alive she looks outside there she saw the balcony.
it's better to end this way.
