You Know What That Was For! (A STRREK Fanficiton)

Chapter 20

Stiles' POV

As soon as we reach the woods, Derek turns off the road and drives into the outskirts of the forest.

"What are you doing?" I frown as he cuts off the engine. He reaches over and unclips my seatbelt and then pulls me into his lap so that my legs dangle over the centre console and my feet rest in the passenger seat. Derek hugs me to him and burrows his face into my neck, breathing deeply. I lean into him, letting my eyes fall shut as I take in his smell. The smell of the woods that Derek has always had, for as long as I can remember. His grip is firm and his breaths deep as he holds me to him like a life line.

"I missed you" Derek barely whispers and nuzzles his nose against my cheek. I turn and lean my forehead against his and he tips his head back to capture his lips against mine. The kiss is gentle at first, slow and intimate, like he's trying to express how much he's missed me. Then it gets a little rougher, a little harder and the yearning to be closer takes over. My hands lock into the hair at the back of his head as his roam my back. Suddenly Derek breaks off and leans around me and the chair slides back as he pulls the lever on the seat to give us more room. "Move" he orders, helping me to straddle his waist and my head hits the roof and I can't help but laugh and then Derek is laughing and he throws his head back grinning form ear to ear. "What are we doing?" He chuckles, I open my mouth to answer when he opens the drivers side door. I stumble out and he follows quickly and picks me up under my thighs and suddenly my back is pressed up against a tree and his lips are on my neck and I'm hard and he's hard and oh god it can't happen like this!

"Wait, stop." I rush out and Derek does so immediately, putting me down and stepping away. There's a hurt look on his face but he's trying hard to hide it as he turns side on so that he can look back towards the car. "It's just... I want to." I tell him, feeling my cheeks turn pink and I throw my hands up in exasperation. "I've, I've not done it before." I sigh, making sure not to look at him and feeling unbelievably embarrassed.

"Like been with a guy?" Derek voice speaks out into the wind and the crunch of leaves beneath my feet. Fuck.

"Like... like anyone. I'm a virgin." I mumble, crossing my arms across my chest like a protective barrier. Suddenly there's strong arms around my waist and Derek is pressed up against my back with his chin resting on my shoulder.

"I didn't even, I'm sorry Stiles." He tells me, rubbing his face against mine and it reminds me a lot of how dogs nudge their owners for attention.

"It's not, I, I... fuck this is embarrassing." I snap at myself, trying to find the right words.

"Take your time."

"I want to have sex with you. I'm just... scared. I mean, you're a big guy and I've never- and I don't really know what I'm doing or what to expect and against a tree in the woods- as hot as that fucking is- doesn't seem like the best choice for my first time- and god I can't stop thinking about it- about you! And I think about it like way more than a normal teenager should think about sex. Don't even get my started about the whole werewolf knotting thing, because I googled that and it doesn't look very appealing Derek. And I-"

"Woah!" Derek cuts me off and turns me around to face him, I blush again, I did not mean to go off on a rant like that. "Listen, let's just dial it back for a minute. I am definitely not going to let your first time be up against a tree, or in my car or anywhere like that. It's going to be at home in our bed, with an empty house. We will go at your pace and I know what I'm doing so you don't  have to worry, I'll talk you through it, so calm down." I sigh and slouch as the tension leaves my body. Derek always seem to say and do exactly the right thing to calm me down.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to blow up. It was just, it felt very real and I, I panicked." I mumble my apology and Derek snorts and pulls me under his arm as he leads us back to the car.