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Leonardo drops me off at my apartment, telling me he'll keep me posted. Notwanting a confrontation, I quietly pack up when I know she's going to be out and leave anote at the entrance to our apartment: 

Dear Carrie, 

I want to thank you for all your support and for letting me move back in with you.Ever since I stopped travelling with Slasher and John's death, I've had no idea what todo with myself as far as work is concerned, until Leonardo filed for custody of Holly.He's offered me a live in nanny job for the time being while I contemplate thedirection I want to go in. I'm sorry for ditching but he can really relate to me afterlosing John and he's been very supportive, enclosed you will see a rent check that shouldcover you until you find another roommate.Hope you're okay with this. 

Love Mya 

Deep down knowing I didn't face her, inevitably the shit will hit the fan, but hopefully when it does, I'll be ready for it. Leonardo said that if she ever wants to see or spend time with Holly, he won't stop her. The troubling fact is that she doesn't. Her education and Hunter is all she seems to care about, so as far as Leonardo and I are concerned, we are doing the right thing for Holly. Leonardo hasn't been awarded custody yet, but he asked me to move in early so we could toddlerafi his apartment before she arrives. We picked up the most beautiful lavender paint colour for her room and a princess bed with an elaborate canopy that every girl fancies. You can tell by the way he's doing her room, that he's going to spoil her. Will and Leonardo decided on a gradual transition increasing time gradually until she's with her dad more than her grandfather. "I love the bed," I tell him, imagining the room painted in lavender. 'Did you buy a sheet set for her yet?"

He has a dumbfounded expression on his face, "I forgot!""It's okay, it gives me something to do. When's your next game?""Tomorrow night, Denver. Would you like to join me?" He offers."I haven't been to a game since John was alive. I think I need you or Carrie by myside the first time I go. I think I'll just stay here and work on Holly's room.""Are you sure?" He asks concerned."Most definitely," I respond.

I worked on decorating Holly's new room when Carrie texted me:

Carrie: I hope you're okay with this? Seriously? 

Me: Hi, maybe we should talk on the phone.Carrie: You think? 

My phone rings a minute later.

"How do you think I can be okay with you shacking up with my ex-boyfriend whilehe sues for custody of Holly. What part of all of this scenario is okay?" she huffs into thephone.I feel defensive, "I'm not shacking up, I'm working for him and you don't ask abouther, you never visit her.""Don't judge! It's none of your business? Are you sleeping with him?"I just want to explode, she has some nerve, it's like she doesn't even know meanymore. "You're heart may be made of stone, but mine isn't. There's no way I wouldshack up with anyone after losing John!"

"Mya seriously! You weren't in love with John, you were cheating on him a fewdays before the accident. You're lying to yourself. Why would you go from touring witha rockstar and almost becoming an overnight sensation yourself to become a NANNY?Who does that unless you're lusting after the father? So are you?

"I'm not!" I snap ever so tempted to hang up on her. "Even if I was, what do youcare? You love Hunter, or do you? You number one priority should be Holly notLeonardo , what's wrong with you?""I have you as a best friend!" s

he spits, click dial tone.She had me second guessing myself, whether being a nanny was the right thing forme, or not. Deep down, I know I should be more focussed in securing a job with abrighter future.