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Leonardo and I decided to throw a grand party for Holly's third birthday. Invites were sent out a month before her big day. We hired a princess from her favourite movie and invited Leonardo's parents: Will, Gwen, V, Carrie, Hunter, and last but not least Jake. Leonardo really impressed me by inviting Carrie and Hunter. I'm guaranteed some sort of drama at this birthday. 

We cater it so we can spend the majority of our time doting on the birthday girl anddrinking enough to get stupid drunk but ensuring that the birthday girl doesn't get intoany of the spirits. She is going to be so excited when she see's the present Leonardo picked up for her, guaranteed to be better than everyone else's. I have it hidden in mybedroom room. Leonardo brought the cake out to Holly first and had her blow out the candles and then she was adorned with her gifts. Carrie bought Holly a keepsake mother daughter bracelet and of course Hunter had to think he was outdoing everyone with a life-sized castle that has to be assembled by Leonardo, the poor guy. You just know he paid a small fortune judging by the box it came in, but that didn't impress me. It's our turn, I go upstairs and I grab the gift, it squirms in my hands but I secure it, not having a name yet. We've left it up to Holly to name her new grey tabi kitten. It was love at first sight. Leonardo holds the kitten while she pets it, "What would you like to call her?" he asks. 

parkles!" "Sparkles it is!" He says to her. She kisses him on the cheek. Holly starts playing with her new toys faster than Leonardo can assemble them. Carrie walks up to me with a cocktail in her hand, "These are potent!" she comments. "Enjoying yourself?" I inquire. It's not very often that Leonardo and Hunter are ever at the same function together. Carrie's in her element with all the attention she's getting from them. "Definitely! That's a sweet present Leonardo got her, but he should have cleared it with me first! What if I'm allergic?" "You don't live with her," I strike her with reality. "For now, are you coming to the wedding?"

"I thought you were holding off for now, that's what you told me in the park," I remind her. "We've decided to go ahead with it. I take it you'll be coming with Leonardo?" "I'm not on the market, so most likely." She looks at me concerned, "You should get help if you can't move on." "I don't NEED help because I don't want to be with someone, I'm okay not being in a relationship." She shrugs indifferently, "I'm just suggesting you start dating, you've been mourning for quite some time." "I'm good," I reassure. "Did you hear about the singing competition 'So You Think You Can Sing Canada?'" She takes a different direction with our conversation. It's a welcomed change. Now she has my attention! "No! Tell me more!" "The winner gets a record deal with Slasher's label. It's going to take Canada by storm, they think other countries will copy the idea." "Why wouldn't Canada use a Canadian label?" "The Brits' wanted to tap into the Canadian market! Nifty eh?" "Nifty," I mimic. She giggles and taps my shoulder playfully. "I'm seriously interested," I tell her sincerely. "Good, you had me worried," she admits. "I'm seriously okay," I tell her. "Seriously okay, doesn't mean happy." She has a point. It's time I start putting myself first, and stop hiding at Leonardo's in this make believe perfect world I wish for like in high school, I'm not fulfilled. Now it's the farthest thing I want for myself. I know Leonardo loves Carrie and they should be living like a family parenting Holly. What's going on right now is all wrong. I need to talk sense into him, stop him from giving up on her, before she ends up with the wrong guy permanently