I am not heaven
Nor hell
I am purgatory
Stuck between what's bad for me
And something better
Stuck between more than you know
It's a hard place to be
To be stuck between wanting love from another
And wanting to love yourself
While not needing the love you crave
It's being stuck between independence
And dependencies
I'm stuck between loving myself unapologetically
But yet not nearly enough
Stuck between other's expectations and my own happiness
I'm stuck between having it all together
And falling apart
Stuck between making it look easy (it's not)
And being honest about how hard it is (that's not an actual option tho, now is it?)
I'm stuck between vulnerability and invincibility
Stuck between bad decision and bettering myself
I'm stuck
I'm stuck
I'm stuck
Between heaven and hell
In a purgatory
Of my own making
