Unshatter me

Chapter 43

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Hook. Line . Sinker

"I'm sorry"

He whispered.

Those two words.

I'm sorry.

I know that I said those words initially just to make him feel guilty so that he would actually let me go, but then , tell me why I felt a piece of my heart literally break from within

I'm sorry

Those two words disoriented me

I'm sorry

Tell me why I felt my throat clog and why it suddenly got harder to breath

I'm sorry

Tell me why the tears that were trickling from my eyes flowed non stop.

The word sorry.

He was sorry?

Why was he sorry? Why was he sorry now?

"No"

I found myself replying before I could even think

"I have hurt you so much Andrea and you are right. I should never have done what I did to you. I shouldn't have given you any sort of hope. I should never had done the horrid things that I had done unto you

And that is why I am apologizing"

Now that made me let out a bitter laugh

You know if the word sorry could actually matter in some situations, then why were people who were considered murderers locked up for life in prison

Those murders could easily just tell their murder victims , together with their families , sorry and get easily forgiven and then life would move on

But no

That would not be considered as justice because there has to be consequences to every choice and decisions that are made in life

"You hurt me Xerxes. You keep on hurting me Xerxes and you know that. You know the damage that you keep on doing to me but yet you proceed on to do it over and over again

So tell me Xerxes, why ? Why do you do it? Why do you do this?

Why do you hurt mee time and time again

Why do you hurt me but then yet again you don't want to let me go?"

"It's because I am selfish Andrea. I am selfish. I am a selfish bastard Andrea. I am selfish Andrea and because of that I don't want to loose you

I know and I am well aware that I hurt you time and time again but I don't want you to walk away from me

I know that it was cruel of me to tell you that I loved you yet I marked another she wolf not long after

And I know that it was inhumane of me to expect you to be okay with it

And that is why I apologize ""

"You are sick in the head, you know that right"

"Call me sick, or insane , I shall accept all those titles. Hit me ,punch me , shout at me, I rather have you doing all that but not leaving me.

I cannot bear to have you away from me Andrea and that is why I cannot accept you leaving me"

"Bullshit!"

I yelled as I held myself together trying so damn hard not to kick this wolf where the sun don't shine

Is this supposed to be some sort of confession or something

If it is then it has to be one of the most fucked up confession I've ever had

This man was selfish. No evil. No heartless and cruel because how could you ever do that to anyone

He was toxic

He was a toxic man who knew how to play with ones feelings

If I wasn't smart and if I were easy to sway then I would have fallen for his words

No

My mind drifted to how life was with Nathaniel and I let me tell you it was hell

And the most hellish part of it all was that I was in a vicious cycle where I thought that that man would change and see me

I thought that Nathaniel would stop hurting me , that he would realize that I loved him for him and that that would be enough

I thought that life was like a fairy tale where live would conquer all

I thought that in order to be with a person that all one would need was to love the person .

I thought that all one needed to do was be understanding

That all I needed to do was just stay

So every hit, I took it

Every abuse , I took it

Every punch, I took it

I took it all and I did it all for love

Love

Love is supposed to be kind and not evil.

Love is supposed to be patient

Love is supposed to be all knowing

Yet instead, life taught me that love...

Love was cruel

Love was torture

Love was selfish

Love was pain. The kind of pain that was neverending

Love is tough

And for the few out there that I thought that they had found that kind of 'true love' never lasted

"I knew you would say that" he sighed

"Then why would you say all that?"

"Because I just needed to get it all off my chest.

I wish that we had met under different circumstances Andrea, but then now I just have to deal with whatever we have right now.

This is the last time we will talk about you leaving this pack

Now, start preparing yourself because soon you will be allocated new duties within the pack

If you have any thoughts of leaving then I will uproot them before they bear fruits

And dint think that I haven't noticed how you and that Lucien guy have been talking

If you want things to go in smoothly and for that man to still have his head then I'd advice you to stop any communication that you've been having with him

I hope I've made myself clear"

And with that he walked away

Author's note

I know I might get hate and all buuuut imma just say it. Some people out here are just pure evil.

Like why would you want to be in a relationship with someone when you yourself aren't even ready for it.

Or better yet, why would you break someone's heart and just right when they are about to heal , you show up and not with the intention of getting back together but because you don't want to see them with someone else.

In short, before you date someone or want someone in your life heal and be mature.

Anywaaaaaays I promised y'all the unnecessary tea that you don't want to hear

Ps ; I broke up with that son of Boaz that I was with .

Anyways I love y'all