Upgrade You

Chapter 6: Too Nervous

Upgrade You

~Justin's P.O.V.~

I literally stood in the middle of the foyer just trying to calm myself down. I was really going to Selena's house? I was really going to be in her room?

Gosh, I've been having wet dreams about this moment since I was fifteen. What If something happens? I'd probably end throwing up on her from my nervousness then she'd kick my ass.

Maybe, it's best if nothing happens. I already have a growing erection just thinking about it.

"Justin, what are you doing?" My mom's heals clicked and clacked as she came into the room.

"Calming myself." I answered.

"Honestly, I don't even know why you're going over there if you're so nervous. Just call her or something." She shrugged. I turned around to her and gave her a face as if she was mental. That was my cue to leave. I wasn't in the mood for one of her rants.

When I had came back from school, the first thing I did was shower and change. I didn't was the queen bee, thinking I was disgusting or something even though, I don't normally get changed from my school clothes until after dinner.

I contemplated whether or not to wear cologne. She'd definitely smell it and probably think I was trying to impress her or something. Which, I was. She's Selena Gomez, why wouldn't I?

Then, I spent a an hour trying to stop my trembling hands and get the courage to text her. Now, I'm just now leaving the house.

What if her brother beats me to a pulp?

In the beginning on the school year, Trent Lewis and Selena had broken up for the last time and apparently he'd done something really shitty to her. Selena's older brother, Jake, found out, charged up to the school, and beat him up. Trent is a big burly beefy guy and Jake was very muscular but, not beefy. A healthy kind of muscular. I think just about everyone was surprised he'd beat up Trent.

What if he did that to me? I mean, I saw him on Friday and he only briefly thanked me for helping Selena but, that was about all the talking we'd done. The main focus was on Selena. For the life of me, I couldn't understand how she could act as if everything was okay today. I guess because no one else knew about besides me and her brother and she didn't want the school getting involved.

All of my thinking must've made me lose track of everything because, the next thing I knew, I was at the adress that was previously written on the palm of my hand.

I went up to the house and just froze. What the hell was a doing? What would I say? What would we talk about? Oh, my. Why didn't I think this through? She's going to think I'm a total loser. I am a total loser, yet I'd asked for popularity? Know one even knows my name. Fuck! I couldn't have just asked her to be my friend? I'm shit out of luck.

I knocked on the door ever so slightly. I needed to keep a calm facade. I had to act cool and collected. But, I could barely get my thoughts together before the door opened and Jake was standing there, eyeing me suspiciously. "You're Selena's friend?" He asked me.

I nodded, is that what you'd call us friends? We'd barely even talked. "Yes, sir."

"Oh, I'm only nineteen. Please, just call me Jake." He insisted.

"Okay... Jake."

He eyed me for a few more seconds before he asked "Hey, aren't you that guy from Friday? The one who was waiting for me with my sister?" Oh no, was he going to beat me? Did he think I was the one who did it? He probably didn't trust me now.