Hum Tum - A Journey of Becoming "Us"! ❤️✨

Noor E Khuda

Prerna walked in through my door, she saw me sitting on my bed. Coming closer to my bed, she sat beside me.

My room lights were dim, so I wasn't able to see her clearly,
" I am sorry Di, I didn't know, That guy was using you to get me. Months back, he first time tried to talk to me at our playground when your class and mine were having the game period at the same time, As far as of I remember, you were absent that day. I didn't like that guy much. so, I excused myself from him." She paused for a bit, her voice was heaving, it was like she too cried.

" He many times tried to get in my way, but every time I dismissed him. One day, when you told Mumma that you were going to group study with your friend, you told Mumma, his name was Chirag, I instantly knew it was the same guy as, he introduced me with the same name and there was only one Chirag in 11th commerce."

" After that, once he came to ask about you, I talked to him thinking he was your friend and harmless. I swear di, we talked two to three times, in person and the topic was mostly 'you'. He once sent me a friend request, and I accepted it thinking he was your friend and wanted to be friends with me. You never mentioned loving him in front of me. I am sorry di, I never knew he befriended you, because he likes me. I never liked him di. For me, he was always a stranger, whom I didn't know."

" I know, I should have talked to you about talking to him, but I didn't know about your and his feelings, so I thought it was normal. Don't stay angry with me di." Completing her speech she hugged me from the side, continually saying sorry to me.

Her sorry couldn't mend my broken heart and fix my feelings. No one's sorry can heal the betrayal and heartbreak I felt, after hearing every single word of Chirag.

But it was not her fault, I know she would never backstab me, though we always fight with each other but still, she was my sister.

I closed my eyes for some seconds to control my tears then, patted her hands and moved my body towards her,
"I know, it's not your fault, but Pre, I just need some time, to cope with all these new happenings, can you leave me alone for some time?"

She was about to argue but I said, "Please."

Nodding her head and hugging me, she left from there.

I took my knees in front of me and sat on my bed completely. The bit of braveness I was showing in front of Prerna was gone now.

I wholly broke down there, that was the worst day of my life. First, all the painful words of Chirag and then my father's shameful face with his head hung low, started moving around my mind.

'Am I a bad daughter and a desperate human? Is it all my fault? Was loving Chirag a mistake? If I should have listened to my father, then it all would have never happened.' All these questions were making my head burst out giving me so many insecurities and the main question was ' Am I, not enough?'

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Days turned into months, and my father still didn't talk to me, but I thanked god at least my mom was on talking terms with me, After 2-3 days of that incident, I tried talking to my mother, and I broke down in front of her. I apologized to her and promised that I would never do anything like that in future. She forgave me and hugged me, she said that ' it was not my fault, it's teenage and to leave all these things and concentrate on my studies.'

My family members too started talking to me after some days. Shikha and Shruti Di were never angry with me, they understood my situation, as they both are too going through the same phase. Prerna apologized to me many times after that, and knowing it was not her fault, I told her to not do so.

I told vinnie everything that happened to me, and she assured me that, she would always be there for me, whenever I needed her. Her grandfather's health was not deteriorating, so she was busy with her problems.

At class, Shivam always used to be there for me, he sat beside my bench every day after that day. Adira too used to talk to me like a normal friend, Even sometimes Roshan tried talking to me, and I didn't know if he had any idea about his friend's deed but, I talked to him normally as a classmate.

About Chirag, I never talked to him after that, and too stayed away from my way. Though sometimes seeing him like that made me feel a different kind of pain.

And, I was living my life with so much misery and insecurity. I was asking one thing to god 'Why me?'.

One day when I was studying for my final exams, my sister came into our room and said," Dad is asking for you."

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