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𝗳 𝗼 𝘂 𝗿 𝘁 𝘆 𝘁 𝘄 𝗼*

I LOVE YOU MORE
"we never realize how frozen we are until someone starts to melt our ice"
*this chapter contains sexual content*

~lyla~

"you really think i should go to see him?" i ask confused. mason nods his head so hard i think his eyes might pop out.

"yes of course." he replies, as if it's the most simple decision in the world. we were on the way home from the fair, we dropped off mase just a couple minutes ago, and i was informing the group about the situation with joão because mason asked.

micah was angry, and he had a right to be. everyone was angry at what he had done, but i think the fact that he is still texting me nonstop and made a public apology, makes it better. at least i know he's sorry.

i really do want to be with him, but he's gone back to magui so many times, how do i know he won't do it again? i just don't know if i can fully trust him again, but he makes me a happier person, so i'm willing to try again.

"you have to talk to him eventually, you might as well do it sooner rather than later." mer nudges my shoulder and i groan.

"but i'm scared. what if he just likes the chase and doesn't actually want to be with me?" i know he does want to be with me, i'm just making excuses so i don't have to talk to him.

"lyla shut up you know that's not true." nick yells from the passenger seat. he turns around and throws a couple fries at me playfully. i catch them and shove them into my mouth.

we stopped to get food after the fair, even though we basically ate everything there. micah, nick, and both masons will eat almost anything in a five foot radius of them. so when we passed a mcdonalds, they convinced us stop.

"look lyla, just give it a chance. obviously he did something really bad, but everyone makes mistakes and it's pretty obvious he regrets it and loves you. so at least talk to him." harper sighs, staring at me with passionate eyes.

"okay fine, drop me off at his house." i groan in frustration that they were able to convince me. meredith and harper high five, but when i glare at them, they quickly sink deeper into the car seats.

we have four people squished into the back seat, which is dangerous and definitely illegal, but no one wanted to sit in the third row so we all just squeezed together.

i type joaos address into the gps and we arrive at his house in under five minutes. "damn bring me with you." mason chuckles, admiring the large house in front of us.

"not a chance." i slip over the girls to hop out the side door. they all stare at me for a moment and i let out a sigh. "do i seriously have to-"

"yes!" meredith yells and slams the door in my face. micah drives off with instruction from the girls, and in only a couple seconds, i'm alone again. staring at the house many memories i would never like to revisit were made.

his house is dark, and for a moment i doubt if he's even home, but i start to hike up the driveway towards the door anyways. i haven't been here since the time i found him and magui.

what if she is here again? what if everything they said was a lie just to make me feel better about myself?

i try not to overthink as i pound my fist on the door, but it's difficult. after a few moments it swings open and my heart flutters, but i quickly push my feelings aside as i stare at the state joão is in in front of me.