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REGRET
"a strong word, with an even stronger meaning"
*u guys are about to hate me sm i'm so sorry*

~lyla~

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joão <3

joão <3
lyla
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joão <3
please answer me
i'm so sorry
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joão <3
i saw the posts and comments
is that why you were sad at dinner?
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joão <3
can you please answer
talk to me lyla
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joão <3
lyla please
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joão <3
i want you
i need you
not in a sexual way
i just idk
i can't explain it
just please talk to me baby
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joão <3
i need to know ur okay
just tell me and i'll leave u alone i promise
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joão <3
none of that shit people said is true
ur truly amazing
ur beautiful
and idgaf what they have to say about us
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joão <3
please
i'm worried about you
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joão <3
i know u said u needed time but please just
lmk that ur okay
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joão <3
people are bitches
i hate them
but ur the best thing that has happened to me
ur my favorite person
and i don't care what the fans think
let them hate as much as they want
but i'm still gonna love you the same
nothing will change i promise
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joão <3
i'm so so so sorry
i love you
please answer me
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joão <3
i'm scared
please
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joão <3
ok why are u ignoring me
lyla just fucking answer the damn phone
delivered 3 days ago

regret.

a strong word, with a even stronger meaning.

a feeling of sadness, repentance, or disappointment over something that has happened or been done.

i was currently bathing in my own regret.

regret in myself, regret in the way i made him feel, and regret in the way i left him. again. how do i keep doing this?

i'm ashamed.

i've been stuck in my room, i haven't been out in over three days. i've gotten barely any sleep, i haven't eaten anything, my stomach is basically eating itself.

but i was too caught up in my own regret to get up. to take a shower. to put on clean clothes. to pick up my phone. to even make myself a bite to eat.

i was dying.

or at least i thought i was.

not literally of course. but i was still "dying."