Self Harm

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Charlies POV:

I was shaking. Nick saw my scars, he walked in. What's he going to think? He's probably so mad at me. What if he wants a divorce? What if he kicks me out? What if he sees what I'm doing and then starts doing it himself? What if he turns into me? This is all my fault and nothings even happened.

"Please Char, talk to me" I look up at him, his eyes are watery and full of pain. I wanted to tell him about everything but I coudn't bring myself to do it, its trying to spill but it's being held down by something. "Look Char, your eating is getting worse and I thought you were getting better, for a long time actually. I feel somethings gone wrong, not with you but your being distant, relapsing but worst of all your not eating and it's really worrying. I've seen you through all, I've always been here for you and I always will be. I love you Charlie Nelson" we were both sobbing loudly.

I still couldn't bring myself to say anything. When I had stayed silent for a long time, Nick just kissed my forehead and got up to leave. Before he opened the door, "Please talk to me when your ready," He said in a soft tone. I laid back to allow myself to cry and Henry came and sat on my chest. I hugged him tightly in an attempt to stop crying, when he licked my face I smiled gratefully, I love having nick in my life.

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  The next day
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Nicks POV:

Charlie still hasn't said anything to me , I suspect he's just worried but why would he be? He knows I love him and care about him alot, he knows I'd never judge him, he knows I want to help. So why?

When I woke up Charlie wasn't next to me, nor was Henry. This was odd because even if Charlie didn't stay with me Henry always did. I got up, there was sleep in the corner of my eyes. I searched all around the house for Charlie or Henry, neither were there. I opened the front door to see if Charlie took Henry out for the toilet. To my surprise they were sat in the car together. They weren't going anywhere they were just sat there. I went to join them to see what was up with Charlie. I sat down in the drivers seat next to Charlie who was holding Henry like Simba.

"Look Charlie I know you hate talking about your feelings but please, just this time and I won't bug you again" I said to him concerned.

"You know what Nick. If you haven't caught on that I don't want to talk about it then mabey you never will but if you keep bugging me, your just gonna piss me off more." I cut him off.

"More?! So this is because your pissed off at me?" He obviously didn't realise what he said.

"What, no of course not Nick, why the actual fuck would I cut myself because I'm pissed off at you. Honestly use your common sense Mate." He was getting more angry and annoyed.

"What the fuck, you don't even call your friends mate, let alone your husband" I was starting to become angry now. How dare he speak to me like that, I don't even think he's ever casually said mate.

"Im sick of you Nick, when we were teens you said that you'd never try to fix me or act like I'm fragile and you are! It's exactly what I didn't want you to do, It makes me feel like SHIT!" The memories of when we were teens came rushing back. All the good things and bad things. I wanted to say something but it was too late, he left just as the rain came pouring down. Instead of running after him you decided to just leave him and cried with Henry in my arms.

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