hesitation || minsung

2: news

also b4 we start, this is another flashback, its prob gonna b more chapters w flashbacks b4 we actually start the story😭

Flashback

Jisung was waiting for Trashy to finish her classes because once again, she wanted to go home with him. Because, of course, his parents were working and currently not there. Jisung was not hoping to take her home. If he could pause time, he would for eternity and just stand there until he dies rather than taking her home with him doing the same thing over and over. If he could stay still until he dies than spend his life with her, he would choose the other option. Trashy walked out of the school and greeted Jisung but he was still raging in his thoughts about how much he hated her. And everything that came with her. 

"Helloooo?" Trashy said anticipated. Jisung quickly snapped out of it because he didn't want to hear her whine annoyingly.

"Oh uh.. Sorry, yeah. Let's go." Jisung walked to his car, and thank goodness he decided to take his car today. Then he can go fast and play music so he didn't have to hear her talk. He would play her terrible music tastes and it would be better than listening to her speak or ramble about her day. 

"Why'd you take your car today?" She asked, but she wasn't done. Why does she have to question everything?!

"Oh uh-" Jisung was cut off by her speaking again.

"If you keep taking your car to school you're going to get fat!" Trashy finished, genuinely mad at him. Jisung couldn't believe his ears. Does she think she can just order him around like that? It's his life! But again, if he acted out his mom would probably kick him out or beat him. She hasn't done it before but she has slapped him a couple amount of times. Jisung cleared his throat.

"Sorry." The rest of the ride was awkward and tiring for him, but not for Trashy. Trashy talked as much as how much you would write in 2 essays. He was so tired of it. He can't wait until he was 18 so he can move out and not have to listen to his parents anymore. Once Jisung was nearing his house, Trashy started talking slower and lower. Jisung was surprised but relieved, but also not because people talking slow also annoyed him.

I guess it's better than how she usually talks

"Listen..Um..." Trashy started, as she nervously continued.

Jisung was interested because she never talked like this. He was excited because maybe she was talking about ending things with him. He forced down his reliefed smile and stayed quiet to listen to her.

"Yeah?" Jisung asked genuinely barely holding in the excitement.

"The week before...when we had sex for two hours..?" Trashy brought up the memory then instantly brushed it away and felt regret. Jisung now thought it might be an apology. But she never apologized for forcing me to do it with her. He really anticipated for her to just spit it out. Why talk slow when all her life she talked annoyingly all the time in high pitch? And now she decided to do it slowly?

"A few days after that...I started throwing up..I felt crave for random foods..." as Trashy kept going, Jisung felt his eyes grow larger. His heart started beating faster. Droplets of sweat dripping on his face. As he keeps driving, racing thoughts echoed in his head. 

Is she really pregnant?

Am I actually the father?

Am I the cause of this?

What if she dies while giving birth?

I don't even know how to take care of a child!

Is this...all my fault?

hii guys ! this is the end of chapter 2! this 1 was shorter sorry! and yes, chapter 3 is also going 2 b another flashback im sorryyyy if u r sick of those but i need 2 do them if the story is going 2 b good. dont worry guys i have this planned out ! word count: 663