GUYS I THINK THIS IS THE LAST FLASHBACK CHAPTERRRR YAEYYYYYYY!!!!! OKAY GUYS HOLD ON I HOPE YOUVE MADE IT THIS FAR!! PLEASEE GET THROUGH THE BOREDOM (IF THIS IS BORING) THE NEXT CHAPTER IS (im pretty sure) NOT GOING 2 BE A FLASHBACK CHAPTER
2 months later
"9..." Jisung sighed taking a breath after every word he said. "...months."
He was pacing around the room waiting for Trashy to start screaming anything and then start rushing her to the hospital. He was so nervous, any second she could be about to give birth.
who knows? sometimes it takes longer...no. i want it to happen this month. i want to stop panicking. what if i dont have enough practice? what if im not ready?
Jisung tries to calm himself down by breathing slowly. He didn't want his thoughts to take over again. If he did, he would be having a mental breakdown. He's glad he decided to take the time to calm down. He started to watch a movie and ask every 30 minutes if Trashy needed help.
Jisungs POV:
"JISUNG!" I practically jolted up into the sky when Trashy screamed my name. I struggled to get on my feet and sprint immediately to where she was.
"YES?"
"Can you bring me some pickles?" I just stood there with my mouth open and blinking.
"U-uh.. s-s-sure..!" She just sat on the bed and gave me an impatient face. I walked out slowly and waited as my heartbeat started slowing down. I sighed reassuringly then swallowed hard and went to get the pickles for Trashy. At least I knew that I was ready to sprint as fast as I can to get Trashy when she actually starts to give birth.
"Here." I said as I gave her the pickles.
"Thanks." She said, not taking her eyes off of the TV. I faked a smile and went back to the guest bed I was staying at. It is most normal to sleep with her, but I don't want to bother her. And for my sake, I just don't want to sleep with her. (lol) As the movie kept going, my eyes started drooping as I fought to keep them open. Eventually, I fell asleep.
next morning
I started to slowly open my eyes and adjust them to the light when I heard screaming. Immediately then I rubbed my eyes, woke up, and stood up. I didn't have time for racing thoughts when TRASHY MIGHT BE GIVING BIRTH!! The screams kept going as I ran to the room Trashy was staying in. She was there on the floor, screaming, with water on the floor. I stood there with horror in my eyes but quickly brushed it away and start focusing on what is going on. I took another stare again and quickly helped Trashy get up and run to the car. While I was driving my ears were ringing, I couldn't stay still, Trashy kept groaning, and I was very uncomfortable. I could barely keep my focus on the road.
how much more??! how much more?!
in the hospital
The doctors rushed Trashy to a free room as she was screaming in pain. My leg couldn't stay still as I was outside of the room the doctors put her in, as it would make me more comfortable. I didn't know what to do. What could I do? Join the doctors and help her? Should I be in there? Why am I thinking if I am comfortable or not? Why am I thinking about myself? He just kept thinking about similar questions like these over and over and just sat in the on one of the chairs outside of the room Trashy was in. Because he was so caught up in his thoughts, he eventually couldn't hear anything, his vision was blurry, and his body wouldn't stop shaking. After a few minutes, the screaming stopped, and that got me out of my trance. One doctor came out of the door and told me to come in. I walked in slowly scared of what I might see. Trashy was smiling with a baby in her arms. Trashy cradling him/her.
"Welcome to the world, little one!" A doctor said.
"What's the gender?" I asked, so I can stop calling him/her an it. I anticipated for the doctor's answer.
"She's a girl." The doctor smiled.
I smiled.
i have a child.
one month later
"Wait...you are seriously gonna leave me and Mina?" I said having the tiniest bit of hope in my eyes and more tears.
"YES!" Trashy screamed. "That child is so annoying! And I don't even CARE about you! The only thing I cared about that had anything to do with you, was your body!" Trashy yelled in her lilting voice. I already knew that, but I thought she would help me take care of the child. I was hurt after hearing that. I can't believe someone can be that heartless. Leaving a child for no reason. No, actually for a very good reason! To go drink with her friends. At least, Trashy thought it was a good reason. Honestly, I didn't feel bad for myself, I felt bad for the child. Growing up without a mom, and growing up with a dad who had no one to help him, and a dad having to fake his age.
I will do my best to protect you.
yes i know this chapter was so trash, BUT AT LEAST I FINISHED IT YAEYYYY!! finally the next chapter isnt a flashback chapter woohoo ! C:< U GUYS BETTER B EXCITED >_< CUZ I AM (i am tired)
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