hesitation || minsung

15: it's you.

Jisung's POV

I woke up with Minho's lips touching the back of his neck slightly. He moved his neck a little bit which caused Minho to flinch and wake up.

"Sorry." I said quietly.

"Hm? No it's okay." Minho said in a deeper voice then usual since he just woke up. He tightened his grip around me and changed to another comfortable position.

"Was last night fun?" I asked.

"For me it was pretty boring, but you know, I have to be there for Changbin." Minho replied. I nodded and began to ask him another question since I was anxious because I don't know what happened. I turned around to face him.

"What happened? I... don't remember." Minho kept quiet for a while.

"Jisung, you drank a lot. Are you okay now?" Minho asked me worriedly.

"Yeah, I'm...I'm okay. Did I do anything...bad? Or embarrassing?" I anticipated. I really hope I didn't.

"Well, first, you started drinking way too much. You were on top of a chair and putting on a show for everybody. I want you to know that you don't need to please anybody. You only need to please yourself, Jisung." He put his hand on my face and caressed it with his thumb. I nodded while blinking and my cheeks colored.

"Then I walked up to you and tried to stop me. You...flirted by hanging your arms around my neck. You went to grab another cup but I pulled you away and you pushed me on the floor. Then you got on top of me and...we just stared at each other. I carried you up to this room and you told me to sleep with you. That's it." He finished. I couldn't believe my ears.

I really did that?! Where did all of that confidence come from?!

"Really?!" I managed to let out a laugh because of how shocking it was, but my ears were burning. He must've felt so disgusted.

"Yes!" He laughed sleepily.

"I'm so sorry! You must've felt so disgusted." I admitted.

"What? No. You were drunk. That's okay. Stuff like that happens. It's normal." He reassured me. I still felt really bad. I'm disgusted at myself. 

"No, really. I'm sorry. I was really irresponsible with my choices and drank too much. Then you had to take care of me and put me to bed like I was a child. I just..." I paused, wondering if I should open up to Minho. 

"...I wanted to please everybody, like you said. At the party, I was trying to calm my social anxiety a bit. Me, Seungmin, and Felix were looking for new friends. Gosh, they are probably worried about me too." After I said that, I looked really guilty and felt really guilty.

"We'll talk to them later. Go on." Minho said.

 "We found this group of two girls and three boys. We asked them if they wanted to hang out and stuff like that, then they asked us if we wanted a drink. I said that I don't drink, but...a girl whispered in the other one's ear and then laughed. I guessed that they were talking about me and entered a trance in my mind of overthinking. At some point I exploded and told them that I would have a drink because I just couldn't take it anymore. I don't know if they were even talking about me. Then the rest happens." 

Minho stayed silent for a moment. I felt like crying. I started slowly, the tears forming in my eyes, and my quivering lip. Minho hugged me. It was a warm hug, the best hug. His hand was caressing my back as I hugged him.

I love you.

HII GUYS! also im not a swiftie im sorry but i feel like this song matches the story thats why i put it! i mean, the love part yk idk what the meaning is but correct me if im wrong ab the song being like this story pls im gonna look dumb......hehehehehehehehehhheh ALSO I THINK THE NEXT CHAPTER IS GOING 2 B THE LAST 1 !!! also this chap is very short sorryyyyyy

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