Lost

9

Nats Pov:

Ive been reading a book for a while now,whilst Anya sleeps on my chest and I'm not going to lie this is the best feeling ever.

I feel complete,like nothing can ruin my mood.she told me to wake her in an hour,but it's been two. I just didn't have the heart to do it.I don't think she slept at all and she looks so peaceful right now.

I eventually decide that she should get up,so I start slowly tracing shapes on her back.

"Anya baby"I coo

"Mmm" she whines
That had to be the cutest thing ever

"Come on wake up or you won't sleep tonight" I tell her

"Okay I'm up,I'm up" she tells me
While rolling off of my body landing on her back.

"Can I look at your hands"
I ask

"Sure"
She mumbles

Anya's pov

I'm not really sure why she needs to see my knuckles, normally I'm supposed to just suck it up.

"What are you thinking about"
She asks me

"Why do you care?"
I question

"What do you mean"
She says

"I'm just a widow,I've killed more people than I can count and yet, here you are cleaning my hands."
I reply

"You're my daughter"
She tells me, not looking up from my hands

"I'm a monster"
I breath out, not intending on her hearing me

Her eyes shot up from my hands and landed on my own.

"You are not a monster! You we're forced to do the things you did, Dreykov is the monster he preys on the vulnerable. The innocent.
So don't you ever say you're a monster"
She says her eyes not leaving mine once.

I told myself that I was going to stop showing signs of weakness but when I'm with Nat, I feel normal. I feel like a normal 17 year old with my mom.

So I lean forwards and wrap my arms around her and pull her in for a hug, that's immediately returned

"I'm sorry, I should've got to you before him, I could've saved you from him" she tells me

"It's okay"
I tell her cupping her face in my hands and wiping away her tears with my thumb.
She didn't look very convinced, so I tried again.

"Mama I'm okay"
I tell her again

Receiving a nod and a grin

"Mama huh"
She states, a large smile spreading across her lips

"That's what you are, is it not?"
I tell her

"Yes yes it is. Say it again"
She pleads like a child asking for ice cream

"Nope" I reply popping the p and hopping of the bathroom counter making my way to the door.

"Where you going?"
She asks still grinning

"I'm hungry"
I tell her

"Come on then" she tells me walking past me to the door

"Ok"
I reply

"So whats your  favourite colour"
She asks

"Red"

"Favourite food?"

"I'm not sure. I had Mac n cheese from a box once that's nice"

"Hm music?"

"Never listen to it myself, only the classical with Madame B"

"Say it again"

"No"

"Please"

"No"

"Yes"

"Mama"

"I love it"
She speaks after a long pause making me smile

"So you've really only ever eating boxed Mac n cheese outside of the red room"
She continues

"Yep" I reply

"What about pancakes"
She asks scanning my face for a reaction

"What's a pancake?"
I ask, receiving a gasp from a new voice, causing me to look up

"Clint" he states reaching his hand out for me to shake

"Anya"I tell him whilst shaking his hand

"So what's this I hear about pancakes" he asks

"I've never had them"
I tell him, receiving another gasp

"Jarvis , get Wanda in here"
He speaks

" I can't believe you've never eaten pancakes" my mom says from beside me

"I've never been given them" I state

"It's okay Wanda makes the best pancakes"Clint tells me

"What's up"
Wanda asks while walking towards us from the door

"Anya's never had pancakes"
Clint tells her

"What!, we have to change that"
She exclaims interlocking our hands and pulling me towards the kitchen

"Sit right there, I'm gonna make you pancakes"she tells me leading me to a chair at the breakfast bar.

"Why are pancakes such a big deal?"I ask

"You have much to learn" she tells me

A/N
Chapter 9 done
I didn't proofread so there may be mistakes