show me that you're vulnerable

is this love unrequited?

things like this started happening more frequently with the two, without the fighting, but jisung would find himself waking up mostly or completely naked in minhos bed.

it all started that night after their fight at minhos moms house, but they just continued doing things like that for the past couple weeks since.
at first jisung was loving it, not putting much thought into it before just acting. but now it's starting to eat him up.

as more time passed and they have yet to put any labels on their relationship, jisung started to get a little more hesitant. he wondered if minho felt the same about him or if he was just being used. he knows what it's like to be used by someone he loved and he knows that he never wants to be in that situation again.

he wants to stand his ground, state his opinion, talk about what it all means with minho, but every time he sees him it's like a switch goes off in his mind and suddenly he's just allowing minho to do anything he wants to him.

he is aware that now a few of minhos friends dislike him because hyunjin had swayed their opinions, he doesn't know why hyunjin doesn't like him in the first place but now he has a couple more people to worry about. minho doesn't seem to act any different towards him so that's all that really matters. he thinks that the more he says 'yes' to minho, the longer he'll stay.

he's wondering how long it will be before minho is turned against him too, wondering if it will happen soon or if it will never happen, who knows? he doesn't want to bother minho with too many questions and ruin what they have because quite frankly this is the best they've ever been.

jisung feels like minho is starting to catch on that there is something bothering him, he sees it in the way he hesitates for only a moment before doing anything or saying anything. he sees the flicker of worry in his eyes yet he keeps quiet.

chan already knows about the whole situation. he couldn't hide any of his emotions around chan, he feels like he can see right into his brain sometimes reading every thought. chan keeps telling him to have a talk with minho because, well, minho isn't a bad guy.

everyone knows that minho cares a lot about jisung and chan is sure that the last thing minho would want to do is to intentionally hurt jisung, but talking about their emotions wouldn't do any harm.

jisung found himself in a similar situation. most days he hangs out with minho they're in each others beds watching a movie. lately the pair has been very lazy, work started to pick up for both of them and now their schedules were getting crazier.

so every time they have their unofficial dates (is that what they are?) they're usually in bed relaxing. they don't have the time or the energy to go out.

it was getting late, their movie had just ended and they both were just laying in bed staring at the ceiling. jisung started playing with his fingers, lingering thoughts of confessions.

what are we?

he doesn't want minho to get mad at him, he doesn't want to be brushed off or ignored, he wants what they have now. he wants what they have now and more.. that was the problem though.

"i think im gonna head home, it's getting late sung." minho said as he sat up, his eyes never leaving jisung as he spoke.

jisung sat up with him, both boys getting off of the bed standing in front of each other now.
minho reached his hand out and brushed his fingers in jisungs hair, he pressed into the touch.

"goodnight jisung." he smiled and turned towards the door making his way towards it.

jisung was seeing everything in slow motion it seemed.

instead of staying where he was, returning a goodnight to minho as he left, he instead walked behind him and gripped his shirt.

"min- wait." minho stopped and turned back around, he was confused for a second, the expression on his face showed that until he saw jisungs eyes. the same eyes, slightly worried, wide eyes that stared at him as if they were searching for something. longing for something.

"minho i want- no.. i need-" jisung stopped, he cut himself off mid sentence. too many words in his mind, he had to filter though them for a second before finishing, had to find the best way to ask minho if they could be more.

"you want me to stay the night again baby?" a soft smirk tugging at his lips. his voice that is as smooth as honey makes jisung want to say yes.

minho steps closer, his hands cupping the sides of jisungs face as his thumb drags across his bottom lip, tugging at it purposefully to make jisung want more.

before jisung could think about his original plan of confessing his love to minho he was already nodding his head yes in response to minhos question. he does want minho to spend the night with him of course, but he's not sure if minho would want to after he knew about jisungs extreme feelings towards him.

the intense feelings that were rising in his chest each time he was around minho, sending him over the edge again and again. he needed to get this heavy weight off of his chest.

it's crazy to think that he's in this situation, everything happened so fast and it's just been more and more. just about a week ago minho wouldn't explain why he kissed him, now they're technically friends with benefits? it's crazy, the way love- lust works in mysterious ways.

of course before jisung could even think about mouthing any sort of a confession to minho his mouth was already occupied by minhos. he will talk to minho eventually, just not tonight.

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heyy <3 i didn't mean to take this long to post this part but i hope you guys liked it!
i thought i would finish this chapter fast then i forgot everything that i planned to write so i had writers block for over two weeks, it was.. interesting hahaha
anyways i literally just took a hot 2am shower and all of a sudden i became so motivated lolll
i hope you guys didn't think i forgot about you<3 i just want you all to know that no matter how long i take, i will never leave this story unfinished especially without any notice, so it may take me a while to upload sometimes but eventually i will get it done. i'll try harder to get it done faster to not leave you guys hanging haha but thank you for your interest in my story <3