Jenna had gotten in to a small routine with Aliyah mainly, her other siblings being to busy always for some reason, She was starting to get desperate at the same time, don't get her wrong, she missed her family, this family wasn't bad, She missed Y/n too mainly, she realized so many things and after she's been talking to her sister about it, she has accepted it, in the words of Aliyah
She was an asshole and terrible girlfriend, she realized she did Y/n wrong so many times, not just this time and she never made it up to her...why was she still with her? She wasn't worth it, in Aliyah's words she must see something for her to not end things, if it were the other way around
Would she break up with Y/n...? that was a good question, she asked her self that, what would she do if she were Y/n?
"Y/n realized a song right now?!?!?" Aliyah screamed getting everyone's attention, Jenna quickly jumped as Aliyah played it
"TV" They both read
I'll stay in the pool and drown
So I don't have to watch you leave
I put on Survivor just to watch somebody suffer
Maybe I should get some sleep
Jenna frowned remembering these were text Y/n had sent her, she quickly grabbed her sister dragging her to the room as the song kept playing
Don't know where you are right now??
Did you see me on TV?
"Did you see me on TV? " Y/n shook her head sadly "No babe i 'm" "Really? you knew this was important to me Y/n! I'll talk to you later i can't believe you right now" She hung up, Y/n bit her lip frowning "I'm sick..."
I'll try not to starve myself
Just because you're mad at me
Y/n looked at her plate full with food "Honey you have to eat" Her mother said, Y/n nodded smiling poking it around, she felt so sad, her heart hurts every time Jenna gets mad at her
And I'll be in denial for at least a little while
What about the plans we made?
"She canceled" Y/n said looking at Jenna's family, they all gathered together to celebrate her 20th birthday, they let her stay until her flight back home, she hugged Jenna's pillow, they were supposed to do so many things together
Now all of my friends are missing again
'Cause that's what happens when you fall in love
"Why don't you hang out with your friends babe?" Jenna asked over the phone, Y/n scratched her head on the other end "I think their to busy to hang out with me"
You don't have the time, you leave them all behind
And you tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love
i didn't have the time to be with them because i only want to hang out with you
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
"Do you think i'm the problem sometimes?" Y/n asked as she stared at Jenna who frowned at her "I feel like i always start stuff and you do nothing wrong" Y/n added looking down "Am i enough Jenna?" Jenna quickly hugged her kissing her forehead frowning "Of course your enough i love you so much"
Baby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problem
Baby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problem
Baby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problem
Y/n stared at the sealing as tears ran down her cheeks, did she do something wrong? was she not enough? , Maybe she really wasn't... Jenna is a Supernova while Y/n was just a simple star...how could she be more for her...? she felt like she wasn't enough...
" baby, I'm the problem"
"Damn that was deep...not her usual..." Aliyah said feeling the sadness of the song, she turned to look at her sister who had tears running down her cheeks and lost in her head "Jenna..." she whispered getting close to her but no response came out "Jenna.." she said again pulling her sister in a hug, she thought about her as if it were her actual sister "What happened..?" Jenna finally hugged back thankful for having her, she was always there, in her world and this one too "Those are memories from my Y/n" she cried out, Aliyah's eyes went wide...no wonder this was so different from her usual stuff...
"She asked me once if she was the problem, if she was enough, she has no friends i guess thanks to me, she confessed once she didn't eat when i got mad at her, and that's because her mom exposed her, the first lyrics are text she'd send me and sometimes i never answered..." Aliyah felt like she was hugging and helping a stranger, she knew deep down the person she was describing wasn't really her "Why did you act like that...you literally broke her "
Those word echoed in her head, she did break her...
Y/n your not the problem...baby, i'm the problem....she thought as she pulled away from her sister, "I have to make things right... i don't want to lose her"
"We'll get you back to her Jen..please..i hope you don't fuck up"
The sisters talked more, Aliyah wanting to see Y/n's live concert on youtube
"Your sure your okay with watching her?" Jenna nodded smiling at her "Yeah it's fine"
Y/n smiled as she waved at the camera and at the audience "Well hello thereeee thank you all for coming to see me, welcome! and if your at home thank you for tuning in" She said winking at the camera
Jenna smiled, while Aliyah tried so hard not to squeal in excitement, Jenna took in her outfit, she was wearing black dress pants with a white loose dress shirt and dress shoes, even in this universe she was fit
"I hope you all enjoyed my new song...a bit different well not really" She paused as she looked at the crowd with a soft smile who were laughing at what she said "But different is good sometimes so please try new things, ANYWAAAYS LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED"
American Whore A&W started playing as the crowd screamed in excitement
"i never knew she could sing" Jenna said as she stared at the girl on the t.v, feeling sad, she never noticed these things "She's amazing i swear if you don't keep her i will"
Jenna looked at her highly offended slapping the back of her head
Y/n smiled as she got close to the camera tapping the lens
"Hello there i know your watching me"
Jenna caressed the screen smiling softly
Y/n frowned at the camera starting to feel weird, she stared at the camera a bit
"Dude...are you seeing this? It's like she can feel you..." Jenna frowned pulling her hand away from the screen, Y/n quickly shaking her head smiling again
"Sorry i got lost a bit! but everyone knows this next song" She walked around stage taking a sip of her water "It's about my imaginary girlfriend!" The crowed cheered making Y/n make a worried funny face "You guys aren't going to question my sanity? Rudeee i thought you were my fans" she giggled the audience laughing again
she looked in to a camera
"I'm gonna try it" Jenna said quickly as she stretched her arm as if she were reaching for her, Y/n stretched her arm out as well, reaching too, Aliyah and Jenna gasped...they really were connected
"If your out there if your not just in my dreams...if your real..i'm waiting for you..."
