Saving Mr. Popular

Chapter 64: Peace

Andrya's POV

Yoongi and I met in the strangest ways. We accompanied each other through our darkest times, even when we were strangers. I am not at my darkest now, but he was there when I almost drowned myself in sadness. I won't deny that I was also there when he needed someone to save him from people he trusted who would protect him. However, they failed at that part. 

Let's be honest; not everyone is on the same page as you. Not in the same thinking as you nor not in the same priorities as you. We all act differently. 

It's saddening that some people will try to get what they want to the point that they end up harming you, the person they say they treasure and love so much. 

"Hey, you are spacing out," I was called out. 

I didn't notice that I was staring at the lake outside. We just finished eating and ended up sitting together on the couch. He was watching a movie on Netflix, and I was trying to read a case I left at home. 

Yoongi was staring at me for I don't know how long. "Don't people know how to know their limits? They used to love each other, but now, they ended up hurting each other," I can't help it. I told him what I thought. 

"In general?" Yoongi asked, which was the start of something he also wanted to say. I shrugged. I didn't know how to answer that. Maybe I was referring to it in general. "Sometimes, love hurts," he stated. 

Yoongi wasn't staring at me. He was also gazing outside the house - nature was inviting. "As they say, when you love, prepare to get hurt. We weren't oriented about it; we would refuse to believe it if we were. We refuse the fact that there are times when we get hurt and will get hurt while we are loving. Love hurts," He said. 

Yoongi is a man full of thoughts in life. 

I nodded. "It does," I answered. 

I was answering how I felt and how it wasn't me then. I answered subjectively about a topic.

"I am sorry," he suddenly blurted out. 

I was shocked when I heard that but mostly surprised because he was looking down. He was upset. "Huh?" I confusedly ask. "Why say sorry?" I asked him. 

"Alexandrya," he called me out by my full name, giving me chills. Also giving me a heart attack when he faced me. "I was wrong when I told you to forget me and everything that happened between us," my brows furrowed. All of a sudden?

But I know what he was referring to because it was the only time I said that. Yoongi's head went down like he was about to say something even worse, "When I knew that everything that happened was peace and happiness for me."

I gulped. 

What is he saying?

Don't!

"I figured out that I was confused. Because you became my peace, and we just met. I have never felt like that when I was around someone else. I was afraid because you gave me something more than anyone could give. I was afraid because I was blinded by the thought that I could not live with her. I felt like I was cheating on her. The funny thing is that we already broke up," Yoongi was feeding me things that I didn't want to hear now. 

This is so awkward. "I treated you badly, not because I hated you. But because I was so afraid that I might get confused and feel that same peace that I felt when I was with you. I was afraid I might end up looking for that peace," he continued. 

"Stop," I said.

But in my heart, I felt like I wanted more. 

"Please listen to me," Yoongi pleaded like a kid. 

"I didn't know how to tell you this, and I didn't know if this was the right time, but I will tell you now. You gave me peace, and I wanted to feel like that again," Yoongi was straight forward. 

"I won't force you now, but I can't contain it anymore. I have to tell you this instant," he said. 

I was speechless. 

I just met him again after so many years. And this is what he would tell me the moment he saw me. 

I wasn't prepared, and nobody will be prepared like this. 

What will I tell him?

That, yes, I was hurt and cried a river that moment he left me like that?

I didn't know how to love, and I didn't even feel that feeling before. But he made me feel that worst. Should he know that?

"Hold on. I am not ready for this," I told him honestly. 

Am I not really ready?

Or am I just making an excuse?

"I won't force you. I just want to inform you," Yoongi gave me the slyest smile ever. 

"I like it when you are flustered," I pulled myself back. I was taken aback because he suddenly came close to me. I was so scared that something might happen. 

"Stop it!" I pushed him and ran towards my room. 

Where are they?

I will not survive this!

This is so awkward. 

I don't want to be under the same roof as him. 

I was panting at the back of the door when I entered. I didn't notice that my hand was clasping on my chest, beating so fast. 

Damn!

I will not survive the end of the week with him alone. 

"Goodnight, my princess. I will see you tomorrow for breakfast and for some fun activities," I heard him say outside my room. 

"Go away," I shouted back. 

I heard the cutest but devilish gigles.

Oh my, god!

I can't.