First

Freshman Year

This is the year that changed my life.
  It was October fifteenth. I was walking out the back of the gym to head home when a hand grabbed me. I turned around to see a guy a few years older than me standing there with his hand now in his pockets tilting his head to look down at me.

"Hi! I'm frank and you are." He said.
"Avery, why are you talking to me?" I replied.
"Yeah, so I just wanted to know your name. Nice to meet you."
" ummkay, bye."

That was the wrong thing to do.
I turned walk away, and he slammed my face into the wall. Before period he had me by the legs. Dragging me into the bathroom that was right off the side of the gym.

"Shut the f*** up, whatever you do. Don't scream and the harder you fight. The harder I will get." He whispered
" Get the hell off for me asshole." I say it is a tear slipped down my face.
" Not going to happen bitch i'm getting one hundred dollars in your v card." Venom shot from his mouth.
"Don't do this it's jail time. Are you crazy." I asked. He proceed to rip my shirt. I've been moved downto the button of my jeans. What can I do to hit him with what? Pushing me twice my size simple term. I am fixing to be r**** in the school bathroom By whoever this guy thinks he is for a game, Bitch no way it's time to fight.

  I hate him as hard as I could, And he laughed. I tried to kneel him in the balls But he blocked it.
" I said stop you doing that ugly bitch. If you keep doing this, I will fuck you up even more." He was so harsh.
It was about twenty minutes and he was done. After getting dressed, he picked my head up. Reminded me again not to say your word to any one or I would die, slapped the fuck out of my face. I was pretty sur it would be bruised by morning. Just like that it was over and he was gone.
I promised myself that day that I would never be a victim to anyone for any reason again. Thank god we had a break coming up so I could make peace with this and figure out how to deal on my own.

The weeks it followed this. The Ashley quit stopping in the hallway and whisper. What he would do to me if I spoke a word. My friends would ask me what he said and I would blow it off. Like it was just a job saying period it was let go quick. And I had every excuse in the book every time they would ask period if this doesn't stop, this is going to be hell.

Halloween weekend
Aint no one need to go out but for the life of me? I could not get out of bed to do anything. I just wanted to be alone in my bed with no one around. I Did not want to be around a bunch of jokes and a******* at a party? Everyone, but me was going to be drunk app or getting laid. The drinking would be fine if there was a long dock. Anderson, I'm dark, but I'm a sunset with no noise, no people, no touching. But around here, you do not get that. It's a popular party. It is wall to all bodies, loud music, sex, and sometimes even drugs. To top it off, I knew he would be there. He always is every fucking party. I'm much safer here cause if I see his face, I'm a scream at at the top of my lungs and let the whole school know what a dick he is. However I know I cannot do that. For Now
I am house bound until my mouth can stay shut.
" Avery, please, come on, girl, it's fine. Already got to your mom and she said it was fine." Anglin Said with excitement in her voice.
" No thanks i'm on the rag and the cramps are bad" I said
" I wish I knew it was wrong with you" she replied.

Thanksgiving break
  I was feeling a little better, not sore. Bleeding anymore, but my heart and so we're still broken. It will get better by Christmas or new years. I will be ready to party again. It will get better by Christmas or new years. I will be ready to party again. For now it is my bed in emotional eating. To any outsider, I would just look depressed. And that is only because they do not know what happened to me. It was a Friday before Thanksgiving. My parents and I were getting ready to head out to my grandparents for The holiday week. I was so ready to be out of this town for a week. I had plans to turn off my phone. So no one could reach me for the entire vacation. However, as we all know.
Thanks, do not always work out the way we plan. As I put the lifebag in the trunk of my dad's car my phone rang. UNKNOWN NAME Flash on the screen and the only thought I had was oh shit! Who'd be calling me on a holiday Break
Everyone is supposed to be with family. Or on the big ski trip at the lodge.
"Hello"
" Avery are you okay?" A small voice I didn't recognize Came through the phone.
" Who the hell is this?"
" I'm a victim also Avery. I know what he did to you. I know the depression in the heart that comes with it." I still could not figure out who she was, But I knew I now had a reason to leave the herb behind and work out of playing to get better, I wasn't alone anymore.
" Tell me your name. How did you get my number?"
" I'm Sharon I go to his old school. I've found out about you through his ex Teammates here. I found a report he will be in jail soon. Just stay calm and it will be over."
" How did they find out?"
" He bragged to his cousins about it. When they told me, I had to do something. He left our school because of this."
" And what did the cops say? I'm sorry, he did this to you, but a repeat offender. He won't stop and he could be a friend next or a family member."
" I know that's why I filed a report. They have all the evidence they need, he should be picked up."
" Look you have a number if you need Me, I have friends that will bring me to court or a cafe just to talk or if you are ever in the area. We have a local hangout just let me know." Would that the call ended.

It's finally Thanksgiving Day school starts back Monday. But good Lord, am I ready for the spread of food that is in front of me today. Sharon called me last night just to Chat and check on me. That girl is a lot stronger than I am right now. I'm a hot mass and she is a straight up, boss. I often wonder since the first phone call. As she told her family as she was completely alone. During all this, and that is why she called that day. I put my thought away and bowed my head to say grace.
" Now let's eat" My dad said from across the table.
" Yes lets eat." The kids all agreed.
I hope the parents make plates for the kids and then grabbed a plate of my own and headed to the porch to eat with the teens and young adults. It wasn't cold this year so we were good outside. I'm so glad I live in the South. Everyone was chit chatting laughing and having a great time, I love being with my family, My cousins were awesome and with me being the only kid my parents had. We were close and that was the best feeling in the world.
" Hey, squirt, how you been? We haven't talked much. Since you started hanging out with your own friends." Rach said.
" Is it that's a point of me having my own friends" I replied.
" I mean yeah but we're family and that trump's friends right." Karen said.
" Yeah, of course. I just figured you all are older than me." I said.
" True, at least you won't I fuck my friends if you have your own to get with." Chris spoke which is rare he usually just stays quiet since he's the only guy.
" You're safe chris jock suck anyway not my type At all us real girls like bad boys with an edge and alcohol." I said.
" Ha ha very funny Avery." He replied
" Y'all let's eat." Rach said with a smirk.
  We all do again and holy shit it was delicious. It took some of us about fifteen minutes to inhale our plate, so there was no more talking during food time. After taking my plate Back in and letting my food settle, I figured it would be a good time to jog some nerves off. And lo and behold, the only man decided to join me. Chris is a typical job, he watches more than he talks. He has girls hanging off  him. And he hates the fact that his buddies love me.
" What do you want chris there is a reason you wanted to join me."
" Yes, so that my friends I don't care. If you're friends with them, you must know that, right?." He said
" Believe it or not, I understand okay, you'll be at a school before you know it."
"I don't think you do Avery. I know at least too that like you in a non friendly way." He lowered his head.
" I don't want to know i'm not interested at all."
" Good, they are both players and they will be seniors with me. Next year you're only going to be a sophomore." He told me.
" Yes I know this is uncomfortable and we do not need to talk anymore."
" Sure just jog." He said.
The rest of holiday went by in a blur in every sense of the word. After finding out frank the ass hat was arrested, I had a good Crying, Hissy Fit in the shower and picked up the pieces of my broken self, Made a vow to move on and live life. I went back to school with a new Attitude, And everyone noticed no depression and no more tears.

A NEW ME!