Sweet Escape ( Constellation Series #2 )

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

Bittersweet

Lies

I was fed with lies. I'm stuffed.

I don't want to explode. That's so low. I know the fact that I'm the one who was defeated here. My ego is hurting as my heart aches right now.

I am Dike Cassiopeia Monfero, ang taas taas ng tingin ko sa sarili ko. Sobrang taas din ng pader na binuo ko para protektahan ang aking sarili at hindi ko magawang tanggapin na nahulog ako sa lahat ng kasinungalinan.

I was living with lies around me for the whole fucking 8 months.

When some things remind me of my childhood trauma, I can't help but look back and feel that uncomfortable feeling again.

As much as possible, I want to erase it from my head. I don't want to remember any trace of it. It's triggering the trauma that almost stops me from breathing.

Asked him everything now, Dike. You're a wonderful woman. I hope you don't waste your life with a married man.

I closed my eyes tightly and shook my head. Looking at my things in front of me. Kinuha ko ang lotion at normal na nilagyan ang aking balat. Nakaupo ako sa papag at kinakalikot ang mga pang night skin care ko.

After Bianca turned her back to us, I hurriedly stood up and went back here in the house. As if nothing happened.... As if I didn't hear the painful truth.

Hindi ko na nilingon ang kahit na sino sa kanila. Tuwid ang paglalakad ko at kunwaring hindi naapektuhan sa nalaman. No one can hurt me - that's what I thought.

"You're Dike." I murmured while walking straight to the house.

I will act normally. I am not affected! Kapag naging apektado ako, lalo akong talo.

That's my plan.

I don't know what will happen next. I'm tired, I just want to rest.

Kung may iba pa akong dapat malaman gusto ko na agad matapos pero aminin ko man o sa hindi ay totoong natatakot ako.

I know, there's still a lot of secrets... Even me, I have one.

I can't help but blame myself for trusting easily. Hindi ko man lang naisip ang possibility na may asawa na siya. Oh, god. It's fucking hurt!

I am in love with a married man. I am a mistress. I fucking hate the fact that it's slowly drowning in my head.

Kanina ay hindi pa ako gaanong nakakabawi sa mga narinig kaya parang wala lang pero ngayon na narealized ko na lahat ay parang may nakadagan sa dibdib ko dahil sa sobrang bigat.

The door opened, hindi ako tumitingin pero alam ko an agad kung sino iyon. Patuloy lang ako sa paglalagay ng lotion sa katawan ko. Hindi ko pinansin ang paglapit niya sa akin.

Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko - sa mabatong lupa. Hindi pa rin ako tumitingin at nagpatuloy sa ginagawa. I almost flinched when he buried his face on my stomach.

No one dared to break the silence between us . Raven was breathing heavily on my stomach while I'm still spreading the lotion on my skin. Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses ko na itong nagawa pero dahil nararamdaman ko ang galit sa aking loob ay hindi ako tumitigil sa kakukuskos sa balat ko.

"Tapos na kayong maglaro?" I asked calmly.

He stiffened. Bumabaligtad na rin ang sikmura ko dahil sa posisyon namin. Then, I remembered...

He has a wife! I'm disgusted.

I forcefully removed his arms around my stomach. I looked at his bloodshot eyes. Nakaawang ang mapupula niyang labi habang nakatingala sa akin.