Chapter 16-I Have to Speak Up

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Hazel's POV
We all had gone to bed around 2 a.m last night.
I woke up around 10 a.m that same morning. Today was more likely the day that my mom would be here. My mom.. The mom that verbally abused for a good part of my life. The mom that now wants to be part of my life.
I dragged my lifeless body out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I did my business and walked back to Chris's room. I checked my phone seeing my mom had messaged me saying she'x be landing around 2 this afternoon. I put my phone down, threw my hair up in a messy bun, and walked downstairs.
I was the first one up, but not for long. I saw Ghost walking down the stairs. God he looked so fucking hot...
"Oh shit, I didn't know you were up.." He said walking into the kitchen.
"Yeah I'm up."
"Look, we need to talk."
"Why?"
"Because we need to settle this."
"Alright fine, you go first."
"I walked upstairs to go to the bathroom, and she followed. Then when I came out of the bathroom she pulled me into that room. She fucking forced me Hazel."
"A girl? Forcing you to have sex? Good lie. I give you props for trying." I gave him a sarcastic clap and began to walk away.
"Hazel I'm telling you the truth. I was in love with you! Why would I hurt you!?"
"Why wouldn't you stop her!?"
"I tried!"
"Not hard enough Ghost. You fucked her like you fucked me. I'm sorry Ghost, but I don't give second chances."
I walked back upstairs and saw that Chris was up.
"Were you two just arguing?"
"Yeah.. Sorry if I woke up."
"No it's fine."
I gave him a kiss and walked into his room. I saw he had made the bed, how fucking adorable.
"What would you like for breakfast?"
"I'm not hungry right now."
We walked downstairs to see Ghost sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. I felt bad, but he fucked up.
"Go outside, I'm gonna talk to him." Chris whispered to me. I did what I was told..

Chris's POV
"Go outside, I'm gonna talk to him." I whispered to Hazel. She walked away and I sat down beside him.
"Hey." I said, trying to begin the conversation.
"Hi." He said, his voice muffled.
"What's going on with you and Hazel?"
"I fucking lost her because of Amy!"
"I could have told you about her."
"You should have.. She forced me to, and Hazel doesn't believe me.. I love her Chris."
"I know Ghost, she came out crying and I stopped her. She was devastated. She loved you."
"Loved... She loved me. She doesn't love me anymore."
"I shouldn't say anymore. But Ghost, stop dwelling. You're making it worse."
"I can't just stop Chris. I'm living with her. You're dating her for god sake."
"She came to me, what should I have done? Tell her to go away? Tell her she'll be alright? You know how shattered she is. She's been through a lot, doing that just added onto it. She cried multiple times Ghost, she tried to kill herself."
"Wait she did?"
"Yes. Her wrists were horrible and her thighs were mutilated."
"I made her do that..."
"Not just you, everything she's been through, that was just the last straw."
"Well maybe I should just leave then."
"No! Ghost we need you. Hazel needs you."
"No she doesn't, she has you Chris."
"She needs everyone in this band to help her. Like I said, she isn't just damaged, she's fucking shattered Ghost. Now, make up with her and be friends."
"Alright alright."

Ghost's POV
I got up from the couch and went outside to where Hazel was.
"Hey." I said sitting across from her.
"Hi." She said shyly.
"Look, you don't have to believe me, but what I told you is true, Chris even said it."
"I believe you, but I'm pissed at the fact that you didn't fucking stop her."
"I tried, I really did Hazel. I still love you."
"And I still have feelings for you Ghost, but you hurt me. I can't date you. I wouldn't be able to trust you.."
"You don't have to. I just want you back Hazel." I could feel tears surfacing, I couldn't cry now.
"Ghost, maybe later we can date, but not now. I'm with Chris."
"Okay." My voice cracked. I walked calmly inside and upstairs to my room, where I would soon end up crying, alone..

Hazel's POV
Ghost had walked inside and I had just stayed outside. I had to get that off of my chest. I felt bad for saying it, but I had to. It's been on my mind.
"How'd it go?" Chris came out and sat next to me and began to gently rub my back.
"Well I said what I had to say.."
"I heard you still have feelings for him Hazel. If you want him, leave me now."
"Chris stop. I said I'm insanely in love with you. Part of me feels bad for what I did to him."
"Again leave me now."
"Would you stop it. I love you Chris, I wouldn't be able to leave you even if I was forced to."
"That's what I wanted to hear." He kissed my head and walked back inside.

I can't believe I'm in this situation. I'm dating Chris, but I still like Ghost.. I just have to get through it, like I do with everything else.
I walked back inside seeing it was almost noon. I still wasn't hungry.. I think I'm just nervous about my mom. I kind of hope my friend comes along. I know she has a thing for Ricky. Maybe they can get together. Maybe this could be an opportunity to start with a clean slat. Just maybe...

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