Shattered

Chapter 14- You'll always be with me

Hazel's POV
I had gotten out of the shower and dried off. Dabbing my freshly made cuts. I washed out all of the blood, leaving no trace of harm.. I walked to Chris's room and picked out a Motionless In White tank top, and black shorts. I got dressed and combed my hair out. I applied some mousse to my hair and just let it air dry.
I sat on the bed and just thought about my life.. How shitty it has been, Ghost adding to it.
"Hey." Chris said as he walked in.
"Hi." I said softly.
"Are you alright?"
"Yeah."
"Talk to me please."
"I just keep thinking about how shitty my life has been."
"I wish I could help in some way."
"You already are." I smiled.
"And how is that?"
"By being here talking to me.."
"What happened to your thighs?" Shit he can see my cuts...
"I uhh... Nothing."
"Bull shit. Let me see." I couldn't pull my shorts up to show him, so I pulled them down slowly exposing the horrific damage I did to myself.
"Hazel..." He pulled me closer to him.. He slowly and gently kissed my cuts.
"Give me your arms." I held my arms out to him and he did the same to them.
"Please, for me, and the band, stop doing this to yourself.."
"Okay..."
"No not okay, fucking swear to me you will not do it anymore."
"Okay okay... I swear I won't cut myself anymore."
"Thank you." I have no idea what went through my head, but I sat on Chris's lap so my legs would wrap around his waist.. I leaned in, but hesitated to kiss him. Should I do this? I leaned in more until our lips were just barely touching each other. I pierced my lips forward, kissing him gently. Feeling the coldness of his piercings against my skin made me shiver. I let the kiss go on for a few moments, then I pushed him to lie down, making the kiss fill with passion.
"Hazel.."
"Shhh." I kissed him, beginning to make out with him. I pulled his hair gently and lifted his shirt up and off of him. He did the same to me. I pulled his pants down and he picked me up and took me into his secret room. He kicked the door shut and set me gently down on the silky sheets of the bed.
"Are you sure?" He asked before removing anymore clothing.
"Yes." He removed my underwear and bra, making me fully exposed to his eyes. He took his boxers off and got on top of me, barely letting his friend touch my entrance. I pulled him close, allowing him to slid into me. Pain raced through my body, he was bigger than Ghost, but I got used to him. He flipped us over so I was on top. I moved my hips in ways that made him go nuts. He pulled my hair and flipped us back over. He began to go faster, making me moan louder and louder after each thrust.
"Fuck! Chris!" I came on him and soon enough he pulled out and came. I laid on the bed and looked over at Chris.
"You would not believe how long I've been wanting to do that." He said breathing heavily.
"I've been wanting to do it since I fucking got into Motionless In White." I giggled. He smiled and pulled me towards his warm body.
"So, are we officially dating?" I asked hoping to hear a yes.
"Well of course my dear." He kissed me.
"Chris?"
"Yes?"
"Will you always be with me?"
"I will. Always. I promise." I kissed him and got on top of him.
"Round two already?" He smirked.
"If you want to." I said teasing him.
"God you're so fucking hot."
He already had a hard on for me, I really liked that.
The second time around, I was used to his length and size.
I can't believe me and Chris are together now.. He is everything I think about. Day and night. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep. Sometimes he's even in my dreams. I'm absolutely crazy about this man. We laid beside each other and smiled.
"Good lord." He said catching his breath.
"God you're fucking amazing"
We laid there for a few more minutes and then ended up getting dressed. We walked downstairs the see the guys outside on the patio.
"Sup." I said as I walked out.
"Hey Hazel." Angelo said.
"What's going on?"
"Nothing much, just passing time."
"Cool cool."
"So are you and Chris together?" Ricky asked.
"Yes." Chris said sitting beside me.
"That's good." Ghost said.
Oh jesus fuck, here we go.
"Well maybe if someone didn't fucking cheat maybe he'd still have me!" My anger was rising.
"Calm down." Chris grabbed my wrists causing me to wince from the stinging pain.
"Did you try?" Chris whispered in my ear.
"If I were to say no, I'd be lying."
"Why Hazel, what made you want to end it all?"
"Ghost.."
"Fuck him. You have me now."
I stopped talking, I was getting angrier by the minute.
"Okay, what do we all want for dinner?" Ricky said breaking awkwardness.
"I'm not hungry." I got up and went in the house.
I heard someone follow behind.
"Hazel, what is wrong." Chris said.
"What I've been through! You don't fucking get it! I'm going fucking insane!"
"Shh... Come here." He pulled me into his arms, hugging me tightly.
"I love you Hazel.."
"Wait what?" I was shocked to hear that..
"I said I love you."
"I love you too Chris." I said hugging him tighter.
"How about this, let's go out dinner, you and me?"
"Sounds good." I said smiling and kissing him.
I'm going on a date with Chris... My life just might be getting better as I know it.