Shattered

Chapter 8- I need your help

Hazel's POV
I don't know what came over me. I just whipped him over and over until his back was red. It made me feel better. Knowing someone has gone through the same pain that I've gone through. I just left him there. I couldn't bare myself to look at him anymore.
I went to the bathroom and found my shiny friend...

****WARNING SELF HARM SCENE DO NOT READ IF SENSITIVE****
I sat down on the cold floor and began to slide the blade across my soft skin... Blood slowly creeping up to the surface. I did a few on each arm and decided to go for my thighs... I slid the blade across over and over... Blood... Blood everywhere.

****SCENE OVER****

I attempted to get up but the stinging in my thighs weren't allowing.
I tried not to be loud when trying to stand up, but someone heard me...
"Hazel?" Ghost said from outside of the door.
"Yeah?" I tried to hide the fact that I was crying.
"Are you alright?"
"Yeah."
"Open the door Hazel."
"No, I'm going to the bathroom.."
"No you're not. Open this door now."
I opened the door to reveal what I did to myself.
"Hazel! Why did you do this to yourself!?" Ghost was in complete shock.
"I hurt you.." That's all I said before I walked away from him. I went into the bedroom and just sat on the bed.
"Hazel? Can we please talk."
"About what?"
"What just happened."
"I guess." He came over and sat next to me taking my hand into his and lightly kissing it.
"Hazel, I asked you to stop this."
"And I told you I couldn't promise I would stop."
"Promise me you won't."
"No."
"Promise me Hazel!"
"Fine! I promise I won't do this anymore.."
"Get changed, we're going for a ride."
I did as I was told, I changed into my gray skinny jeans, a white Motionless In White t-shirt and my gray vans.
"Are you ready?" Ghost came in and asked.
"Yeah. Just finished my makeup."
We both walked downstairs and out the back door. We walked to the garage and got into his all black 2014 Camero.
"Where are we going?"
"To a private place that only I know of."
I didn't say another word, I just sat back in the seat and let him drive me.

-Half Hour Later-
"Are we almost there." I asked looking around.
"Just about."
"Where are we anyway?"
"I found this place once when I was driving alone one day. I think you'll like it."
He pulled onto a dirt road and we continued on this road for a couple of minutes.
"We're here." He said putting the car in park and turning it off.
"Oh my god.. It's beautiful." I had looked all around, seeing tall trees, blooming flowers,green grass, and an over view of LA. It was like a dream..
"How do you like it?"
"I love it." I looked at him and just couldn't help but smile.
"So talk to me Hazel. What's going through your mind?"
"Everything... Just everything that's happened to me. I got blamed for my sister's death.. My mother hates me, my father hates me, my ex boyfriend abused me..."
"Wait? He abused you!? Why didn't you tell me Hazel?"
"Because I didn't want to... I'm so used to holding everything in. When I hold it in for so long this is what happens. I cry and I mutilate myself... Ghost, I need help..."
"I'll do whatever it takes to make you feel better. I love you."
"I love you too."
"Is there anything else on your mind?"
"No."
"Tell me."
"Ugh fine... I don't know what happened, but I thought of Michael... And I just kept hitting you and hitting you.. And I'm so sorry.."
"It's alright Hazel, I get what you're saying. In a way, I kind of liked it."
"You did?"
"Fuck yeah I did!"
"You make me feel so much better." I smiled at him and gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"So why did you bring me out here?"
"So we could talk in private and so you could see this."
"You are literally the best fucking boyfriend I have ever had."
"Well that's good to hear." He pulled me in for a kiss.
"Want to go back home?"
"Sure."

We drove back home and walked into the house.
"Hey you guys want to go swimming?" Ricky asked going towards the back door.
"Sure." Ghost said going up stairs.
"I'll pass..." I said shyly.
"Come on Hazel, let's have some fun." Chris said.
"Alright fine.." I felt an empty pit in my stomach, Ghost is the only one who has seen the bruises on my body... A lump in my throat was increasing in size as I was getting my bathing suit on. It was just an all black bikini with MIW on the side of my bottom part. Of course I had to get it.
"Woe, looking good." Ghost said coming into the bedroom.
"I'm worried... What if they say something about the bruises.."
"They won't, if they do, then maybe just tell them."
"Thanks for the advice."
"No problem." He kissed my cheek and we walked down to the swimming pool.
I removed my towel to expose all of the bruises on me... I don't think they've noticed yet...
"Woe Hazel. What happened to you?" Balz asked sitting beside me.
You have to be fucking kidding me!
"Nothing..."
"It's obviously something."
"I'm fine."
"Whatever you say."
"Guys just leave her alone, she already feels uncomfortable." Ghost said sitting by me.
"Thank you..." I whispered to him.
They didn't ask anymore questions, they just got in the pool and started splashing each other.
"Get in here Hazel!" Chris said motioning me to come in.
I got up and walked to the edge of the pool. I could tell that on the bottom of it, it had MIW in big black letters with their signatures.
I jumped in right where everyone was.
"Oh so we're playing that game are we!?" Ghost said swimming towards me. He wrapped his arms around me and went under water. I faced him and kissed him, deepening the kiss.
We came up for air and got a bunch of "ewwws" from the guys.
"Oh shut up." I splashed them, which caused them to splash me back.
"Fuck you!" I yelled.
"No thank you!" Ricky yelled.
"Look out!!" Chris yelled as he slid down the water slide right be me.
"You're an ass!" I jumped on his back causing him to go under water.
"Ghost! Control your woman!" Chris said.
"Nope, not my problem."
"Fuck you!"
We continued to stay in the pool for a while longer.
I think this is the most fun I've had in a few years..