you only pass through my city
every once in a million seconds in a broken clock
Y/N'S POV
*ding ding* my head shoots up, i got a notification.
i look at my phone and see it's from finn. i smile.
TEXTS
finn
hey! how was school?
y/n
it was okay, it would be better
if you went there as well :(
finn
awh, baby don't be sad.
we'll see each other soon.
i promise.
i love you ❤️
y/n
i love you too, finn.
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i sigh as i put my phone down. how i wish finn lived here.
why did we have to meet online? why couldn't we just both live in the same town.
yet we talk like we're living
only miles, only minutes from another just around the block
it's weird. i've never actually met finn, but it feels like i've known him my whole life.
he's in vancouver, canada, and i'm in florida, america. so we live so so far away.
yet we talk like we only live down the block from each other.
TEXTS
y/n
hi! how was school? i'm so bored.
can you talk?
finn
hey babe, school was good.
im sorry you're bored y/n
but i cant call you right now.
how about you go out somewhere?
y/n
okay.
finn
i love you
y/n
love you too, finn.
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END OF TEXTS
i close my eyes. finn's always busy at the moment.
but maybe going for a coffee will make me feel better.
as i stare at my screen, shining blue and green
all alone in a coffee shop
i smile sat in my seat in the coffee shop, finn's not busy anymore so we're texting.
he makes me so happy.
i wait for him to reply to my latest message, staring at my phone shining blue and green.
it feels like he's right here with me, i look around just to realise that i'm alone.
he's not here with me, he's in canada. staring at his phone shining blue and green as well.
and i realise, this is actually an online love. i mean, when's he likely to come to florida?
when am i likely to come to vancouver?
probably never,
i cant help but imagine what maybe could've happened
if we weren't just an online love
"you ok babe?" finn says.
is stare at his face on the screen and sigh. "mhm" i say.
he raises his eyebrows. "you look frustrated, what's up? i know you." he says.
he knows me too well.
"i just, i keep thinking how different things would be if we weren't just an online love." i sat quietly.
finn scrunches his eyebrows. "what do you mean?" he asks.
"i mean, i cant help thinking how different life would be if we could actually see each other." i reply.
i feel so mean saying it. but i cant just live hoping that i'll see finn one day. i'm sixteen, i cant wait two years just to see a guy that i might not even get along with in person.
it hurts to think about but really, how long can i go on like this?
i know he's busy, i know he's away filming a lot of the time but it's draining.
"i know y/n, but we'll see each other soon. i promise." he says with a sweet smile.
i feel tears well in my eyes, i feel so bad.
i sadly smile as the tears slowly fall. "you say soon all the time. how soon is soon? i can't go on like this finn." i say shakily.
"i don't know how soon soon is baby. but, w-what are you saying?" he asks nervously.
"i'm saying, i don't even know what i'm saying finn! i just, i don't think i can do anymore." i say whispering the last part. the tears won't stop falling.
"y/n, please." he says sadly.
"i don't know what to do anymore." i whisper through my tears.
finn doesn't reply. i look at my screen. i can see he's crying.
"i love you so, so much. i'm so sorry. maybe this was meant to just be an online love." i say crying.
"no, please. y/n we'll make it work. i'll come and see you as soon as i can. please baby, i love you." finn chokes out.
i close my eyes and let the tears fall, i shake my head.
"goodbye finn" i whisper before hanging up.
i set my phone down and put my hands over my mouth and start sobbing.
this is for the better right?
if only we could've been more than just an online love.
this is super weird sorry
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