Goodbye Agony

Chapter 15: Gravity

*Clary's P.O.V*

For the first time in a whole now, the house was dead silent. Jace had taken Chris and the twins out to the park and I had some much needed time to myself. I showered, cleaned most of the house, started prepping for dinner later. Once I was caught up with house chores, I sat down on the couch. I turned the TV on but then turned it off again because I changed my mind. Instead, I picked up my ipod, put in the ear buds, and hit pressed play. The song that came up was "Gravity" by Papa Roach.

"I was there on the day truth died
Blood on my hands, throw them up in the sky
I was a number one sinner no less
My life was a lie and my wish was a death
I fell in love with the ways of the world
Money and the fame, the booze and the girls
But I couldn't stay faithful if I tried
I'd turn into a devil you could see it in my eyes
I blacked out, told you everything I ever did
I couldn't take all the lies I was living with
I broke your heart, broke up the next day
My bags outside yelling get the hell away
You're not a husband, not a father just a pig
And you can never change all the things that you did
That's when I knew it, it wouldn't last
You'll never get away when you're running from the past

And we fly...
Fly into outer space
I float away but you're my gravity
Die to love another day
We rise again and lose our gravity

I'm a broken man, I'm full of sin
I'm sick of all this hell that I'm livin' in
I can't escape it - this is how it feels
When you try to numb the pain with a thousand pills
You tore me down and wished that I was dead
Said you wanna sleep alone in another bed
But when I push you away, you only pull me closer
It's only over when we both wanna say it's over
I gotta change - this is not who I am
I wanna start over, wanna try this again
You're everything I need, everything I'm not
So pull the trigger give me one more shot

And we fly...
Fly into outer space
I float away but you're my gravity
Die to love another day
We rise again and lose our gravity

You love me You hate me
You kiss me You break me
You lifted me up just to watch as you dropped me
You promised me - looked me straight in the eyes
No matter what you say - I don't know the truth from the lies
I held you up like I always do
I forgave you for your sins and I carried you through
No matter how hard we fall
We always knew
You will bleed for me, and I will bleed for you

And we fly...
Fly into outer space
I float away but you're my gravity
Die to love another day
We rise again and lose our gravity

And we fly...
Fly into outer space
I float away but you're my gravity
Die to love another day
We rise again and lose our gravity

And we fly...
Fly into outer space
I float away but you're my gravity
Die to love another day
We rise again and lose our gravity

Baby we can float away"

The song had looped through a couple times when the door opened and in came Jace and the kids.
"Mommy!" Chris said as he hugged me.
"Hey, buddy. Did you have fun with daddy?" I asked
"Yeah! He took me to the park and then we went to get something to eat,"
"Sounds like fun. Where'd you go to eat?" I smiled
"Friendly's!!" He yelled
"Nice. Did you get ice cream too?"
He nodded his head and laid down on the couch next to me.
I looked at Jace and motioned for him to come see me.
He came over and set next to me and kissed my forehead. Then, he got the twins out of their carrier and handed them to me so I could feed them.
"Hey, pretty girls," I cooed.
I sat up and covered myself with a blanket so I could breastfeed Autumn and Faith.
By the time they were done, Chris had fallen asleep next to me and the twins were asleep on my chest. Jace was out in the kitchen doing something so I took the opportunity to doze off while I could.

*Jace's P.O.V*

I walked back from the kitchen and smiled at the scene in front of me. I grabbed my phone and took a picture before going back to my seat next to Clary.
I turned on the TV and put the volume on low so I wouldn't wake everyone up.
As soon as I had settled in, someone knocked on the door.
I groaned silently and got up to open the door to see Alec and Isabelle in the doorway.
"What?" I asked tiredly
"Well, someone's grumpy," Izzy said a and walked inside, Alec following behind her.
"Whatever you need, tell me and make it quick. I don't want to wake Clary and the kids."
"It's nothing bad, if that's what you're assuming, we just wanted to come and visit." Isabelle stated
"Well, more so her than me. I was dragged along." Alec mumbled.
"You mean you didn't want to see me?" I asked
"Not really. I love you dearly, Jace, but Magnus and I were spending the day together and we were rudely interrupted by this one," he jammed his thumb on Izzy's direction.
"That's what I live for, you know." She said to Alec.
"Yes, Iz, I know."
"You're no fun anymore," she whined.
"Guys, this isn't a good time to visit, okay. Can it wait until another day?" I said, interrupting their argument.
"Fine," Izzy sighed and closed the door behind her and Alec.
"Good riddance," I muttered.
I went back to the living room and sat back down next to the still sleeping Clary.
"I love you," I whispered and then fell asleep myself.