Revenant Reborn

Alive

(Loba Pov)
1 week after that Rev got taken away from me, I haven’t been outside or shown any sign of me. No texts, no calls, no one allowed to go in my house cuss it’s a mess.
Bottles everywhere and broken glasses… yeah I fucked up again. I just can’t after all the things I’ve seen. ‘I NEED HIS COMPANY…. IF I FIND OUT HE’S SOMEWHERE ELSE I WILL KILL MYSELF! URGH!’ I say to myself as I threw another bottle as I sit on the ground my hands in my hair that looked crazy.
R: i woke up again hearing people talking...
"You cant do this... ----... The games are chill not this kind of stuff, you know its not allowed..."
"I know... i know... i was just testing him"
"Tes... testing me...? WHAT, IM NOT A TOY!!! IM NOT TH- "
I screamed but i started to fade away again, THIS IS NOT FUNNY! I WOULD KILL WHOEVER IS DOING THIS TO ME!!! . . .
//WELCOME MR. CROSS// "W-what IS this" Suddenly I was in front of my house... I looked around and started touching everything to find out if it was real... F-finally... was I finally back? LOBA... SHIT! I start to run to the door and start to punch it "LOBA?? ITS ME, REVENANT"
I was waiting till i think... W-what if shes behind this... It was a woman voice kinda like hers.... And a male voice... is... is she...
L: *laughs weird* “It’s like I can still hear his voice.” I stand up on my waggling legs and open the door softly and I stop acting weird.
“R-Rev…? Is it really you?” I squint my eyes a bit trying to see through my teary eyes.
R: "I... am..."  i just hug her even if i still couldn’t trust her…”
L: I hug him so tightly I feel myself again. “Nooo… I’m a mess but don’t mind that. Rev what- what the fuck happened!?”
R: "Mhm... A lot of things happend.. and... I think you should know the truth... Call Mirage" i said while i enter again taking my head
L: I panic again he would complain of the mess and be mad for being drunk… I just take my phone and call Mirage.
R: "If ur wondering... I dont really care about the mess... I care about you and i fucked up more…”
L: “It’s not ur fault… ur still ur robot self. I missed you.” I say with verry cracked voice and kissed him on the cheek.
M: i was still nervous... OH! my phone... as fast i saw it was Loba i take it "H-hey you good?? Are you good? D-do you n-need something??"
L: “Ah… Mirage, come to my house right now. No questions.” *hangs up without letting him get an answer*
M: "i... oh she ... okay... ah..."
d-does she knows?? .... I’m so s-scared right now... but i take all i need and i start to go running to her house
L: I rest myself in the couch and I look at Rev still worried.
“You will explain everything to us… right?”
R: "i... missed you to..." i kiss softly her head... "and... yes.. i.. will.. everything..." i started to get more nervous
M: *ring the Bell dying on the door breathing hard*
L: I stand up again getting myself together again. I open the door and look at him tired and fucked up… “Guess who’s back…” I say with a little enthusiasm letting him in and shutting everything down again. Making it a little dark I even had to put a light on.
M: "o-oh... y-you good...? A-and w-whos ba-"
R: i can see him shutting up when he see me... i just can’t have any feelings than just wanting to break in tears ....
M: "h-hi....." He saids shy "Y-you good ..?"
R: "you should sit... we all have to... talk" I can feel that his emotions went high of anxiety
We all sat with each other and listened to him closely.

R: "There are several issues that need to be discussed... I'll start at the beginning..."
I began to explain everything that happened, the party, the... date with which I lied to Loba... My feelings about why she mistrusted about her after all her work... My kiss with Witt... My feelings towards him... That I am not able to accept for fear of what it might do to Loba, him or anyone close to me...
“About the games... I don't feel like it's my body... I can't control it... “
When it's over... I wait for answers from both of you, adding the time you need to get all the information.
M: I didn't have words to describe... M-my emotions right now... I could only look at Loba the whole time that Rev... m-mentioned me... But... Y-he's afraid to accept... Because ...if... he hurts me??...
L: I didn’t know what quite to do… I just stare at the table with no emotion on my face when tears came in my eyes again.
“I know… u never trusted me… u never did.” *shakingly breathes out* “But the fact that u lied brings me…and a kiss? I hope that was an ‘drunk’ accident” I say slowly looking at Mirage with only my eyes and I turn back to Revenant. “Like I said before *just smiles while tears roll down* “Ur a machine, ur body has been upgraded recently, it’s okay” I put my hand on my head feeling lost.
Am I single, is he breaking up, what’s going to happen to us, to the games, to mirage…
I just break down in tears and cry
M: "i.... i... i wasnt... drunk... i... "
R: "say it, it’s your moment..."
M: "i... i like him since a weeks... months ago... but i didn’t realise since... The Day of the party... the way we talked to e-eesch other... ma-makes me... y-you know... l-like him... more... and i j-just... w--wanna... s-spend ti-me w-with so-meone..."
R: he started to cry too... my heart was broken in peace’s right now... he stutters a lot trying to talk ... i look at Loba... i tried to tell her something but... i don’t know what should i tell her
R: i... trusted you... But this last mission... I dont know ... Loba i just... I don’t know
L: “It was a big accident… I know…but… *looks at rev straight in the eyes* “What about us…”
R: "i... i dont really know cuss right now... im a mess with... all this.. i dont know what to do since weeks... i... i feel ... comfortable around him... And with you but... I .. don’t know what to do anymore"
M: ".... Im... im sorry... this is all my fault... i... im s-sorry..."
R: "This.. is not your fault Elliott"
M: i start to cry when he called me by my name... "I’m so sorry i... " start to cry even more
R: i couldn’t handle it more and a Lil tears goes down my face, as far as i notice i stand up and i turn my back to them letting it all go out in silence
R: "as... far a-as i know the games will continue in a few days... Not a thing to... worry about... " i sniff trying to remove all the tears from my face, I couldn't stop crying... STOP ALREADY!!!
M: " i-im... Sorry... " i tried to take Loba's hand...
L: I just cry in silence… he’s in love with one of my best friends… and I know he still loves me deeply but… it’s so hard to believe it…
I take Mirage his hand and rub it softly “H-hey look at me… it’s okay… U- really love him huh? *sniff* U can-… u can get him I’ll just be here.” I cry more cuss I know that I can’t be alone and I’ll probably kill myself by getting drunk…
M: B-bu...but.. L-lo-Loba i ... i c-cant... i.. W-what about you.. ? I-its y-your husband... i-im the problem her- “
R: “YOUR NOT THE PROBLEM! YOUR NOT! I AM IM ALWAYS THE PROBLEM, I SHOULD BE DEAD!! NOT HERE I CAN’T!! I WANNA KILL MYSELF!! ITS BEEN MY FAULT ALL THIS 359 YEARS!! .... it.. was never yours…”
R: "IM NOT HAPPY IM NOT NOTHING IM HERE TRAPPED TO BE ALIVE CUSS IM JUST A TOY!! IVE BEEN ALWAYS BE AND ILL ALWAS BE A TOY FOR EVEREYONE WHO HAS MY SOURCE CODE IM... im tired.... im... r-really t-tired..."
I just kneeled on the floor crying hard cuss i cant more with all this

L: “REV I WAS NOWHERE WITOUT YOU, U KNOW THAT? U MADE ME FEEL HAPPY AGAIN IN LIFE… I would have never asked for anything better. I’m GLAD that u are alive. YES EVEN AFTER KILLING MY PARENTS, AFTER ALL THE TRAUMA I STILL LOVE U AND IM GLAD I DO!” *I breathe softly while I still rub Witt his hands* “Hun… You’re never the problem stop saying that. U know, u two are verry insecure… Why? You guys are both amazing person’s I equally love. I would do anything to make you all better. I’m kind as I should be.”
I whipe my tears off and calm more down

R: i just heared noises from behind... i see all my life passing in my head.. again... again... again... all my deads and suicides... my dad... Loba with my source code.. my old version laughing at me... i just... cant ....
M: "...im... sorry... Loba.. im just.. sorry...i didnt...me-Man.... I didn’t want this..."

L: I couldn’t anymore… I didn’t wanted to be there… I take off my necklace Rev gave to me once and whisper to Mirage “Take ur happy ending… don’t come looking for me before I find u when I’m happy again.” I give him a friendly kiss on the cheek and go over to Rev while I hand over my necklace to Mirage.
“Demonio…” I start to cry again. “I will always see a good in you no matter what. Hate me all u want. I will still remember everything and smile because it happened. I love you…” I kissed him on the cheek softly. “Please… take care of each other.”
I didn’t know what else to do so I just teleport to my roof to get some air and alone time…

R: "no...no...no... FUCK!!" I started to punched the floor and pull into some cables of my chest while crying

M: i-i... i dont know wha-what to do with... this... i think looking at the necklance... i put it slowly on the place that loba was a secends ago ... it.. doesn’t belong to me... i ... i can’t take it... I look at Rev and i just see him pulling cables and a lot of weird blood ... oil coming out of it "NO! STOP! P-PLEASE....!"
R: "IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER I CANT DIE!! WHO CARED IF I DO IT OR NOT, I FUCKED UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN NOTHING MATTERS OF WHAT HAPPEND"
M: "STOP YELLING AT ME!!! P-PLEASE!!" I screamed loud as i can taking all the cables trying to put it back together staining all my clothes with his... blood.
He is staring at me looking how desperate... i am with the cables
"P-please d--dont do this... I... I dont want y-You to die..." i just hug him hard and tight still blaming myself for all
L: I just listen to it all as I cry softly and look at the sky. “Just remember what I said Revi… and you won’t forget me…” I say softly. More memories came in my head as I watch the sky making it remind me of when Rev took me to star watch in the middle of the match.
I smile softly to myself and lean my head against an iron pole thinking it was his shoulder...

M: "I-im sorry... if you n-ne-need someone to kill... please kill me... b-but not you... s-stay... i... i know its hard for you... but please...w-we can... we can fix this... y-yeah???"
R: "we can’t fix anything... and... i won’t die for this... You stopped me... "
I could see that he calmed down a little when he knew that I said that.... "I guess I'll have to pick up my things..."
M: “s--su.... s... “
R: He couldn’t even talk... What am i doing... Why I’m just like this... i...give him a kiss on the head and i just go up still bleeding a little to just try to take all.... my ... heart... hurts...

M: i couldn’t stop crying on the floor... i-its the 1st time i ... live this... i-i dont want him to leave.... he don’t deserve me... it’s all my fault....

R: i enter the bedroom with my blurred view looking all
L: After some time it got dark and I decide to go back in the bedroom seeing him just laying there. I don’t say anything and just cuddle with him softly and comfortably…
I slowly fell asleep feeling his intense pain…

Written with Jones❤️👺