Good With a Gun| SKZ Mafia

11

♫Your Power - Rain Paris♫

I walk up the stairs and see my old bedroom with a large chain over the door and a now unlocked lock. I push open the door and see the members crowded around Felix and informing them of what just happened. Felix turns his head and looks at me with tears in his eyes, my tears fall heavier at the sight of his sad and disheveled figure. "Nyx.." He whispers, running into my arms and breaking down. "Im so so sorry Nyx." I chuckle as he cries into my shoulder. "Why should you be sorry? Im sorry for not getting to you fast enough." He shakes his head almost violently as he sobs into my shirt. "Also call me Ji, Nyx is for buisness." He laughs, calling me by my sisters childhood nickname. "Ji.. I like that." I laugh as tears flow down and soak his shirt as well. I hear sniffles and look behind him to see the crying members. "Lets go." I speak for everyone to hear me and Felix slowly lets go of the hug, keeping me close to him. "What happened to your waist?" Felix asks, brushing his hand past my bandages. "My father happened, Ill explain everything on the way home." He nods and I look to Chan. "Channie does JYP have the new house ready for us?" I ask and he nods, slightly reddening at the nickname. He laughs and rustles my hair. "You heard the lady, lets go." Everyone exits the house with smiles but a slight draft of despair is very apparent in the mood. We get in the car and Leeknow drives, putting our new address in the gps since JYP had people put our stuff in the new house already. After another 45 minutes of driving, the van drives into our driveway and parks, making everyone let out tense and sad sighs that were not held on purpose. "Everyone get your rest, Ill make dinner." Everyone nods and goes upstairs besides me, Felix, Hyunjin, and Leeknow. "You guys don't have to stay you know." Chan says and I smile, sighing and leaning into the boy next to me, Minho. "We want to, todays been tough and we should stick together." He smiles and leans over the table, kissing my head and wiping some stray hair behind my ear. "Thank you." He says, looking at me and than looking at the others. "Thank you all." Chan goes back to cooking and we sit in an unusual silence, not uncomfortable but just uncommon. "Nyx" Seungmin calls me from the stairs, making me turn and face him. "Whats up?" I ask as he walks to me, getting closer and closer. "I need to redo your wraps." For a split second I forgot all the pain and trauma we went through just a few minutes ago, not wanting to relive those memories I nod and stand up slowly. I look up at Seungmin but his gaze is locked on the floor, "You ok Seung?" He doesnt say anything or even nod, instead he picks me up bridal style and starts walking. We don't say anything to each other the entire walk to the infirmary. "Seung?" I call his name while he opens the door, not answering me and gently sitting me down on one of the beds, immediately putting his hands on the bed on either side of me and keeping our faces close. "Im sorry." He states, causing me to look up at him and meet his sad eyes. "Its alright Seung, I forgive you." I speak softly, giving the boy a soft smile. He smiles back, slowly leaning in without realizing. "Nyx!" Felix's voice rings through the infirmary making Seungmin and I realize our position. He stands up immediately and I lean back. "What were you two doing?" Felix asks with an unreadable expression, causing me to worry about the boy all over again. He cant be jealous right? Love is too expensive in  a world like ours. "Nyx?" Felix calls my name softly, as if I would break in a million peaces. He walks over to me and cups my face, gently swiping his thumbs over my cheeks. "You look sad." He states once more in a soothing manner, making me smile reassuringly at the boy. "Im ok, don't worry." I say making Felix smile back at me. Seungmin clears his throat, signaling Felix to move over. Felix sits next to me and gently takes my hand in his while I slightly lift up my shirt to give Seungmin access to my waist. Both of the boys faces go slightly red as Seungmin does his work quickly yet carefully. "Dinner!" Chans voice rings through the house and I look at Seungmin for confirmation, gaining a nod and small smile in response. I stand up and walk out the room with the two boys following behind me, obvious tension following them. What is happening? They can't do this at a time without tragedies? My thoughts get shaken out of my head when I feel a soft kiss on my forehead, as well as a gentle hold on my uninjured waist side. I focus to see a smiling Han with a slight pink hue on his face. "Do you want to sit with me? The boys behind you don't seem particularly happy at the moment." He ends with a chuckle that I return, giving him small smile and nodding in response. He interlocks our hands and takes us to the far end of the table, sitting down with our hands still locked together. Felix tries to sit next to me but Seungmin gets there first, turning the chair to sit in it before Chan speaks. "Thats my seat." Seungmin pouts and gets up sitting one seat down in the seat next to Chan's. I look at Chan with a thankful expression and he winks at me in response, coming over and ruffling my hair before sitting down. Its not that the boys are making me uncomfortable, its just that I don't necessarily know how to deal with love, growing up in the household that I did. I space out, thinking about the overwhelming situation and my past, forgetting to eat. "Nyx." Chan calls my name sweetly, breaking my thoughts and making me look up at him. "Ji." He tilts his head in confusion. "Just call me Ji, ill explain later." He smiles and picks up some of the delicious food in front of me, bringing it to my mouth and motioning for me to open my mouth. "Eat up Ji." I smile and open my mouth, allowing him to feed me just once. I gently try to take the utensil from his hand but he doesn't let me, pressing his lips together in a thin line and shaking his head. I laugh and he feeds me again, this time I grab his fork and grab some of the food, blowing on the hot food before bringing it to his lips. His face slightly reddens but he eats off the utensil regardless, giving me a soft smile. "I want some too Ji!" Han says from behind me, making me laugh. I turn around to face him and pick up my utensil, grabbing some food and blowing on it before bringing it to his mouth. "Ah." I say, telling him to open his mouth. He smiles happily, opening his mouth for the food and letting me feed him. He chews the food happily before leaning in towards me and giving me a peck on my cheek. My eyes widen and my face tints pink but I shake it off, eating my food with a slight fluster as he giggles next to me.