68: We'll try, together.

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"Like i meant everything i said before i fucking love you and want to end up marrying you im just currently so fucking hurt and so fucking scared of hurting this badly again." Marco said, Kazu replied with all the reasons she chose him, and not Eli and ending with, "If you need a break from me, that's okay. I get it. Take your time, but please consider giving us a try, one more time." "I dont want a break. I want to be with you." Marco added more things about how he felt and they discussed some boundaries so things like this wouldn't happen again. It was the middle of the night, or should I say early in the morning and the two had school the next day so they walked, talked, and found their way back to Kazu's room where they both passed out until atleast 10 am the next day, they both missed their first and second class.

As they both jumped up and got ready Kazu sat and stared into space for a while. Marco looked confused, "Question.. What are we, like right now?" Kazu broke the silence. "I was thinking relationship just going through a bump, a couple, still my girlfriend, im still your boyfriend, but tell me if you see it any other way." Marco replied. "You broke up with me, so i don't see it that way. However i have a crush on you so if you want to ask me out i might say yes who knows," "Not gonna lie, it's on my mind how you said you didn't want to talk or be friends, it kinda of makes me wanna cry again when i think about what would've happened if i just listened and went with what you said" Kazu added. "If im being honest, i gave up there, and just wanted to stop hurting and that was the first thing my brain came up with to stop hurting, but thats no excuse and im grateful and thankful that you are stronger then me and kept trying which is something im truly really grateful for and im proud of you for continuing trying when i had given up and thank you i mean it from the bottom of my heart and im sorry what i had said and me giving up but i know you dont believe me with that but i will prove to you anytime ever again i will never give up like this or give up in general again on you, and i understand that you most likely wont believe it, but i will prove it with my actions." Marco said. "Me not believing is harsh i'm just having a hard time with the whole thing and thinking it'd be that easy too let go of you actually wanted it i don't know it's just kind of how i see it i just felt really disposable in the moment i don't see how i'm as loved as you say if that was the case sorry if it makes it seem like i don't trust you that's not the case" Kazu replied. "I understand why you are finding it hard to believe that i love you as much as i say but there really is nothing else but me being too hurt to try because in my eyes the person i love hurt me and i gave up on everything during that moment, i had gone through and couldnt take back what i had said, what i had done and i felt like i had nothing else to do but i was wrong i shouldve kept trying but none of that is an excuse and i understand what you mean and i wilk try to find a way to prove to you that i love you wholeheartedly, from the bottom of my heart."

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