Trees (an omori fic)

You were just my first, now I've had it

I go over to Nik's house to break the news to him. 

I knock on the door, he answers, looking like a mess. The eyeliner he normally wears is smudged under his eyes, his blond hair is crumpled, and he's wearing baggy t-shirt that is slightly slipping off his shoulder, revealing red marks.

"Hey." He says, his voice deep and gravelly, like he's either been crying or sleeping. I'd guess both. "Your mom already broke the news to me. So... I guess it's over, Sunny. I mean, if you come back, and you're allowed, we can get back together, but like... if we can't see each other in real life, it's pointless."

I nod, and bite my tongue, not because I'm afraid I might say something, that's not a worry for me, but rather, I need to feel physical pain to numb the emotional pain. 

"If you were coming over to... uh, you know, one last time, the answer is no. It's not healthy, Sunny. I took advantage of your kindness. I fucked you up."

Tears threaten to spill over.

"I love you, though." He says, and then shuts the door.

Fuck. The tears come. I want to yell at him, I want to tell him to fuck himself, but I can't, I can't, so I scream, and I pound on his door, as the sky starts to cry too.

"Jesus, dude." He mutters, then wipes his eyes, smudging the already smudged eyeliner across his cheek.

I stop screaming, and fall to the ground.

I'm already broken down, there's no saving me. 

But in true Nik fashion, he still does.

"Come here." He says softly, grabbing me off the ground.

It feels good to be in his arms again.

"Let's get you home, okay?" His voice is gentle, like talking to a baby. I suppose I am home, in some aspects.

I nod, and grab his hand. He holds me tightly as we walk home. 

He knocks on the door, and my mother quickly responds. 

"Mrs. White, Sunny came to my door. He got a little upset when I told him that we weren't healthy for each other, but I made sure he got home safe." He tells my mom, his voice polite.

I nod. 

"Thank you, Nik." She says, then pulls me inside, closing the door in his face.

(374 words)

(Title from Alligator Skin Boots by McCafferty)