Punk flowers: A novel (on Amazon)

stargazing

When I realized this question I decided to tell tish that maybe we should find another person -a woman to be with her. But she was genuinely sad but I had to move on. Beside I could not tell the love of my life that I nearly was in a relationship with a woman never-ending a woman like tish. It feel so dirty. So I want back to my home and was moving on with everything....... lesson learn I hope.
That was when I got home and was asked to go stargazing with fox. This we haven't done in years.
It was nice to see that fox still liked ,well loved stargazing.   It brought us back to our teen years.  
"There's the big dipper," he said.   "Although you are more beautiful, to me."
"Thanks, Fox." I said flattered.
He then kissed me sweetly and deeply as if he never kissed a beautiful girl before.  After watching the stars and making out, he wanted to make love.  And I wanted to watch the x-files.   It was sort of like the distant past.   
"Let's both make love and watch the x-files.  It will be like on the old days."
"I'd like that," I said.  "It be nice."
"Well at least I did not have to worry about the parents interfering."
He kissed me again and we went into before midnight just when it was getting chillies out.
When we got back indoors, we started watching the x-files.  As we looked at eachother in the eyes, a warmth of love that we haven't felt since tish harassed me on Facebook.
Let's just say that tish was an Interference to both of us and Let's not forget tate.   I thought that the two deserved eachother.   
When we heard the old to important theme song of the x-files I  caressed fox's cheek and started kissing him as he ran his fingers through my hair.
"So beautiful,"  he said.
"And you so handsome." I said.
That was when he pulled me closer to him and then I fell on him.
"Make love to me," he said. "Love"
As I let him enter me that was when we were now in the throes of a love act.   Though we were afraid that Lilly would wake up so we kept things quite.  
When I was holding him in my arms as we made love.    He kissed everywhere he wanted while being in me.
"Oh fox," I said.
"Now director Milton." He said.
"You mean your the head of the......"
"FBI,  yes."
Kissing him was surreal now. I want to be able to love him not just for his title but because  he was my love.
"Love, I wish we can be together all the time."
"Your sweet."
We were looking at each other in the eye as the glow of the TV was highlighting us.

After the love making session, we fell asleep  on the couch, in each other's arms.

When we woke up it was with dread.   Lilly was watching us wake up and them we had to tell her to go in the room as we got "changed."
Once that was done we got ready  for the day.   My hair was still disheveled from the loving last night. And so was his.

Could I have met my twin flame at the neighbour's play.group and was too too young to notice  this until I was in high school.   It was possible.  But I did not want to think of twin flame.   That ment if you meet your twin flame, that it was the last life that I am on this planet.   And I did not want to think of that.
But neither could I deny the truth nor my feelings and ignore them.   For that I feared that I would lose my fox forever.   Kind of sad.

Little did I know that he had something planed for tonight.  He had this demeanor that he was hiding something.
When I asked him he just would walk away.   Was he with tish again.   I did not know what to think of this.   He was my everything and I was being cheated on.  Despite his love notes that he left around then they started talking about a surprise.
I started to think that tish wasn't involved with this......this was something good.
But when I asked him, he was still secretive about everything.  When I went to watch the news there was a leak  in the FBI.  I did not know to whom but it was starting to scare me.   Was he leaking information out to whomever, when I wanted to ask him that night I did not get any answers but a question.

"Love, darling," he said.  "Would you make me.the happiest man......"  
Here it comes..... I did not see this coming.

That night we went to  stargaze and talk about the future.  
But then he started talking about the leak and how someone in the bureau was framing him.    If I did not know better I would think it was tish.   That bitch.