Inlove with a killer (Completed)

Morning sickness

2 days later:

-Beyoncé

For the past three days, I have been staying with Kelly. During this time, Jay has been continuously contacting me, but I have been purposely ignoring him. I shared the incident with my mother, and she expressed her disappointment in Jay as she had high expectations for him. Yesterday, Michelle and Kelly took me out to distract me. We went to a club, but I refrained from drinking due to my pregnancy.

Kelly and Michelle were curious about my change in behavior since I usually enjoy alcoholic beverages while partying. I simply told them I wasn't in the mood for it, and they respected my decision.

I've been experiencing severe morning sickness, but I've been hiding it from Kelly to avoid her asking questions. Additionally, I've been craving ice, which is unusual for me since I'm not anemic or anything.

Currently, I'm lying in bed, trying to gather myself and accomplish something today. My mom found another building that I could potentially use for my hair salon. She sent me the address so I could visit it when I feel up to it. I might go see it today, or I might just choose to sleep in and feel down. Who knows, I'm still deeply hurt and confused about everything that has transpired between Jay and me.

"Bey?" I heard Kelly call out as she knocked on the door. "Can I come in?"

"Yes."

Kelly opened the door. "You okay?"

"Yes, I'm just not motivated to do anything." I said.

Kelly sat at the foot of the bed. "Understandable. You can't let that bring you down though sis, you have to keep pushing. It's gonna be tough but you gotta focus on your dreams."

I nodded in agreement. "You're right...but" I paused.

I felt myself about to throw up for the 3rd time this morning. I didn't know whether to hold it down or run to the bathroom.

I'm gonna just try to keep it down until Kelly walks out. I cleared my throat. "But um, it's just.... a-alot going on."

Kelly scrunched her face and eyed me. "What's wrong? You look like you feel sick.."

"No no, I'm okay girl!" I said with a smile on my face.

"Mhm okay well I'm gonna go check some of my emails, call me if you need anything." Kelly said as she got up.

I mumbled. "Okay, thanks..."

As soon as Kelly left, I did the dash and made my way to the bathroom. Once I finally had the chance to use the toilet, I vomited excessively, which made me feel really weak. However, I managed to endure it and proceeded to brush my teeth and take a shower.

This continuous vomiting is unbearable. I hate it so much that I struggle to even retain water sometimes. I need to inform Kelly, Michelle, and my mother about it. Perhaps I will take them out for dinner and reveal everything; I'm uncertain about what approach I should take.

After my shower, I did my basic morning routine, got dressed, and did my hair. I fixed the bed sat down on it and scrolled through my Instagram feed for a while.

Jay called my phone, I didn't wanna answer but I did wanna hear what he had to say.

"Bey?"

"Hm?"

"Avoiding me isn't gonna get us anywhere."

"There isn't a 'us' Jay."

"You gonna give up on me that easily...?"

"Easily? Jay, you lied to me... for 3 fucking years."

"So that's it? You ain't gon let me explain?"

"Jay if we are being honest here. If  your brother didn't tell me anything, I would be with you right now not knowing you're lying to me."

"I'm sorry Bey."

"I gotta go, bye."

Perhaps I should consider listening to him, or maybe not. The truth is, if his brother hadn't revealed all this information to me, I would have continued living a lie with Jay. I haven't even had the chance to meet his parents because I believed they were no longer alive, and I've never been introduced to any of his siblings. When I really think about it, I realize that I have very little knowledge about Jay. This realization scare's me, and I no longer have trust in him.

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