A Life to be Loved

~Chapter 37~

-Lilith-

Each day was the same. Wake up, go to classes, eat lunch, go to classes, eat dinner and then sleep.

Last year, I would've said that my life only consisted of those things.

But now, my days have changed. I don't want to be in my room, doing homework all night while my friends fuck their boyfriends.

I want to fuck, bicker and tease Mattheo, I want him to actually talk to me more than the bare minimum, I want him to punch Cedric when I get sick of my ex.

In short, I want to go back to how things were before I was held hostage by Mattheo's father. That's when everything went to shit. My only fucking friend betrayed me, only because she wanted Mattheo.

Maybe he was telling the truth about the Imperius Curse. Maybe I misjudged the situation. Maybe I-

"Lilith! Lilith, are you listening?" Pansy's voice broke into my thoughts.

"Sorry Pansy. What were you saying?" I sighed.

"I was telling you about my date tonight! The guy is so hot, kind, and even popular! He's perfect!" Pansy gushed. Layla, who was sitting beside her, gasped, squealing.

"Oh my gosh! He sounds amazing! Does he have any hot friends?" Layla asked in her high-pitched voice.

"I didn't ask! I'll check for you. But what about the Hufflepuff Hottie?" Pansy said, checking her nails.

"We were fuck-buddies for a while. He seemed hung up on his ex, so I ditched him. I'm so happy I did! He's so clingy, even though he said that there were no strings attached." Layla explained. I flinched at the nickname for Cedric.

"What about Draco, Pansy? You guys seemed like you were getting along well at the beginning of the year." I wondered. The blond-haired boy would be heartbroken when he'd hear that Pansy was going out with new people so soon after they got together.

"I'll dump him after the date. He's not the one for me!" Pansy said.

"Obviously, if you ditching him so soon." I muttered.

She simply smiled, clearly not hearing my remark. I felt disgusted by what Pansy was doing. I might not care about many people, but I would never break people's trust like that, unless I truly didn't like them.

If I were Pansy, I would never loose someone who clearly cared so much for me. In the few weeks, she'll end up wanting him more than anything, and Draco would fall for her again and again, no matter how hard she hurt him. I wish I had someone who would love me no matter what.

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"Lilith! Honestly, you need to pay attention! I need someone to tell me if my dresses look good!" Pansy snapped her fingers in front of my face.

"Sorry, Pansy. The dress looks great." I murmured. I didn't even know why I was here. Pansy was saying something about dress shopping for her date, and she dragged me along with her. There was no way Mattheo would be here! Not like that would matter.

I wish I didn't make those assumptions about him. He always gave Daphne angry glares before I was captured by his father. I should have remembered those scowls before I said those things to him. He was probably hurt, but just wouldn't tell me. I need a drink. This thinking is too much for me right now.

"Pansy, I have to go." I said, standing from my chair.

"What? No! I need to pick a dress!" She shouted, but I was already running out of the change rooms. I could hear her yelling faintly, but I didn't turn back.

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"Give me your strangest drink!" I told the bartender. He nodded, handing me the glass.  I took a sip, desperate to get wasted.

I finished the drink quickly, ordering another. After a few more, I was drunk. Well, at least I had achieved something that I wanted to do.

As I was downing a shot, I noticed a familiar curly-headed face sitting at one of the tables near me. One of my friends!

Mattheo

I was seated at a table in a bar, talking to Draco and Theodore about some mission my father wanted us to complete. As I sipped my whiskey, I spotted a drunk girl stumbling up to us. Assuming that she wanted a dance from me, I set my glass down.

"Mattheo!" She cheered as her face came into view. It was Lilith.

"What do you want now?" I asked, picking my drink back up. If I had to talk to her, I needed to at least be tipsy.

"I want to talk to you!" She slurred, giggling. She went to sit down in the chair next to me, but somehow fell into my lap. She giggled again, positioning herself to sit on my lap. I groaned. She would probably hurt herself if I didn't take her back to her dorm.

"Alright. What do you want to talk about?" I asked, resting my hand on her thigh.

"I went dress shopping with Pansy!" She beamed. "But before that I ate a cookie!"

I rolled my eyes. Was this how she acted when she was wasted? I much rathered  when she was trying to fuck me. Now she was just acting childish.

"I'm tired!" Lilith whined. "Come on, let's go back to school!" She stood from my lap, grabbing my hand and trying to pull me up. "Mattheo!"

I sighed, standing up. I let her pull me out of the bar, signalling to the boys that we would meet up later to discuss the mission.

The rest of the walk to school consisted of me half-carrying her and Lilith running from store to store like a little kid. If this is what parenthood is like, don't sign me up.

After I finally managed to get her to the Slytherin Common Room, Lilith realized that she forgot her keys to her dorm. After a lot of begging, she convinced me to let her sleep in my room with me.

"I'll take the couch." I offered. Nothing would change my mind about not sharing a bed with her.

"No! I want to cuddle!" Lilith whined, wrapping her arms around my arm.

I groaned. After getting in bed with only my boxers on, Lilith laid with me, wearing one of my shirts. I hated dealing with drunk people. They always thought that you were their best friends, and forgot about any fights you've had.

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