A Life to be Loved

~ Chapter 50 ~

- Lilith -

Dating Cedric again was weird. I knew how it had ended last time, and I really didn't want it to happen again. 

"Lilith?" Cedric's voice startled me from my train of thought. "Are you bored? I can shut up about the Tournament if you want."

"Of course not! Sorry, Cedric," I mumbled, squeezing his hand, which was holding mine.

"Anyway..." Cedric droned on about how determined he was to beat the other schools. I loved dating him, but at times, my new boyfriend could be a bit...much. 

We continued walking toward the Great Hall. My mind kept going back to my thoughts when I was leaving my dorm. I shouldn't have brought up his sudden departure. Those kinds of topics were meant for behind closed doors, not in the middle of the common room. Especially not in front of Riddle. I had no idea what we were anymore, but I knew I would not want to show weaknesses in front of him. And cracks in my relationship were definitely weaknesses.

"You want to go to your own table? Or do you want to sit with me, or I could sit with you?" I looked up at Cedric, nibbling on my upper lip as I thought of his question. I did need to think, and space apart, even for only one meal, would give me time to think, without his constant questions. 

"Yeah, going  to my table is fine. But you haven't spoken to your friends for a while." I frowned, as if I was feeling guilty for drawing him from his companions.

"You're probably right. I'll see you after breakfast." Cedric gave me a quick smile, before walking to the Hufflepuff Table. I made my way to Pansy, who was grinning widely at me.

"Oh my gosh! Are you two dating?" She looked overjoyed, anxiously tapping her fingers on her thigh.

"Yes. How'd you know?" I smiled back, grabbing a serving of oatmeal and dumping it into a bowl.

"You guys were so...close. I couldn't think of any other possible situations where you would let him touch you like that." Pansy explained as she nibbled on a waffle.

"I'm not that mean!" I protested, rolling my eyes at her expression after I spoke.

"Sure." Pansy sobered for a moment. "I want you to be careful, Lilith. He hurt you once before, I don't want it to happen again. Don't be so blind this time. I'm not saying be mean, but don't spill your deepest secrets to him until he's proven himself." 

I nodded, sensing the gravity of her words. "I swear I will. Cedric has been nice so far, better than last time."

I hated how casually I said the words 'last time'. There shouldn't have been a last time. Cedric and I should've been dating this whole time, and not been forced to rekindle our relationship. I knew that I was partly to blame, with screaming another man's name during sex, but he did cheat on me. I wasn't even sure if I had forgiven him yet.

I had always felt that cheating was the worst thing someone could do to end a relationship. My mother and father had only been dating when I was born, but even at a young age, I was sure my father had not been faithful to her before her death. Sirius had never been incredibly present when he spoke with me or my mother. He had locked all her possessions in the attic after her death, not even leaving a letter or picture to remember her in his bedroom.

So, how had I forgiven Cedric so easily?

Had I forgiven Cedric?

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