A Life to be Loved

... Sorry

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hi
So basically, I don't think I'll be continuing A Life To be Loved.I'm just not really interested in it anymore, and the early chapters are shit. I am going to start releasing a new book in a bit, called The Contract. It's an idea I've had for a while, and soon I'll be updating it! 

Thank you for following me, voting or commenting, or just reading. It means the world to me that this fanfic got to almost got to 100k, and I feel really bad that I have to discontinue it.

The Contract will not be a fanfic, and you are all welcome to read it once I start releasing chapters.  

I am so sorry if you liked this, but I feel so guilty for not updating it because of my disinterest. 

Scroll down to read the summary of what would've happened in A Life to be Loved! You definitely do not have to, but I didn't want to disappoint you guys. 

Love you all,  and it would be the most nicest thing if you could maybe read The Contract????

Ly!

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- Lilith -

I felt tears burn in my eyes. 

Cedric was gone. 

He had died in the maze, and now I was sobbing into Mattheo's arms. We were sitting in the bleachers overlooking the place of his death. Mr. Diggory was yelling at the headmasters of the schools, the pale body in front of him. The pale body I had hugged. The pale body I had kissed.

Why the fuck did Mattheo look so guilty? 

Enzo hobbled toward us, clutching a cane in one hand. I held back another sob when I saw the stub of his knee, where his leg ended. A mission for the Dark Lord had ended with a spell to his leg, and we hadn't been able to restore it. 

"I'm sorry, Lils. I liked him." Enzo smiled at me, but it looked like a grimace.

"I did too," I whispered.

Enzo made his way back across the field,  toward Pansy. She looked shocked, but Mattheo had told her to give me space.

"Mattheo? Where were you during the trial?" I asked, looking up to meet his eyes. I had been wondering it for a while, but Cedric's death distracted me.

Sadness filled Mattheo's eyes, and he gently stroked my hair. "I didn't want to kill him, I swear." 

I pulled away from him, staring into his eyes. "No..."

"I'm sorry."

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I don't know what happened next. I remember screaming at him. Hitting him. Being pulled away from him. Being sent to my dorm because I was mad at him.

I miss Cedric.

But the anger had dulled the grief.

The screaming had silenced the sobs.

The shock had slowed the pain.

Why?

I stilled at a knock on my door.

"Lillith?" It was him.

"Come in," I mumbled. I knew he would hear me. Even though I hated  him.

"I didn't want to. I might hate him, but I knew it would hurt you. The Dark Lord said that he would kill you if I didn't kill him. I'm sorry, but I had to choose him." The words rushed out of his mouth like a river, his curly hair slick with sweat.

I stared at him again. 

Then the tears started.

And suddenly, I was swept into Mattheo's arms.

"Shhh. Shhh." He whispered, sitting down on the bed. I sobbed into his chest.

We sat there for a few moments after I stopped crying. I should have gotten off his lap. I should have stopped kissing him. I should have protested when he threw me onto the bed. I should have told him no when he asked. I should have protested when he sank into me. I should have stopped moaning. I should have stopped before I came. I should have stopped before I came for the second time. I should have stopped before I came for the third time.

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"I love you." 

"I love you too."

Darkness.

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ly all. I hope you have the best day ever, and if you never see me again, have the best forever ever. 

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And you get one o.

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FUTURE ME!

I just published this and I feel like crying now??? idk why. This fanfic made up a lot of my life for the last two years.

LY!