SHE!

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Zayn has been acting weird for three days now since his birthday party. I ask him what's wrong but he says 'nothing'.

We're over at Tar and Way's house for a bonfire, his parents left yesterday and Dad went to some meeting in Tokyo and from Venny I didn't hear anything. "The kids are playing in the living room but Max is with them and the guys are preparing the stuff," Val said sitting down on the couch that Tar put in the girl's room.

"How are you, girls?" I chuckled raising a brow at Tar, "Val you start" Val shrugged putting her feet on me, "The shop is doing amazing and was speaking with Jack to open another one but for the future other than that he's training so he can fight" I burst out laughing at the face she made, "I can't stand it, I feel like I'm gonna shit myself when he fights" We agreed and looked at Tar giving her the signal to tell hers.

"I'm okay just started packing due we have three months in LA for the new album," I looked at her leaning a bit forward "LA?" She looked at me confused "You don't know? It's been out a month ago" I shook my head sitting up "Yas, breathe in and out" I looked at Val and took a deep breath.

"I can't stand all this lying! He's using again he has been since last October!" I started pacing tears coming down, "I didn't say anything I only found out a few days ago and now he agreed about getting help but never mentioned LA" By now I was sobbing and sat down hiding my face in my hands, "He promised me!" I looked up sobbing "And three months? Yeah sure I can fly in and him fly out but she's seven months for god sake! And how can he get help" The girls hugged me and I continued to cry, "I don't know what happened to him" I whispered and sat up "I can't keep living like this" They looked at each other and back at me sitting up.

"Talk to him babe, He loves you and Aaleyha so much" I wiped my tears and dried my eyes "Now I know why he is acting weird and even us we love him! Fuck she's a mini him! But I can't do all this lying and everything. If he keeps like this then I have to end it" I whispered the last part.

"Yasmin! What are you saying? Everything is gonna be okay. Go talk to him in the guest room, Al is with Mason and Max" I hugged them walked out and went into the kitchen "Zayn? We have to talk" He turned around with Waylen and looked at me, his face immediately changed but nodded "Go, mate" I walked to the guest room with him following me and closing the door.

"LA? huh?" Not giving him a chance to talk, "I was trying to see how I am gonna tell you" I laughed shaking my head "You have been known since December! First, you use it again, then three months in LA. I'm not saying for you to not go cause sure we can fly in and you fly back but how the fuck are you gonna get help? Your body is weak. Why are you lying Zayn? Where is Zayn the one that used to tell me everything good and bad?" I sobbed sitting down on the end of bed.

He couldn't speak just stood there "I'm your fucking wife, the one that did anything so we have our bundle of joy Zayn. You used to call even at one in the morning when you were on tour and coming home for twenty-four hours. You used to tell me everything even when you had a fight at a bar or when someone tried giving you drugs, What changed? What did Andre and Rowen say to you that made you take again?" I sat up and walked to him "Talk Zayn or god help me" His eyes were filled with tears.

"They said that I'm a bad father and husband after what happened before the X-Factor and that I will always be weak. I was drinking and their words came like shooting in my mind and I ended up using them to forget but idiot I proved that I am a bad husband and father, started to lie to you but I swear to god that when you leave our girl with me I always was sober. I would never do that, yes I take a smoke but when she is sleeping or when you are there but never next to her" He was sobbing hard and grabbed my hands but I pulled them away.

"I know that you are a good father, You are an amazing one even as a husband but Zayn you can't keep doing this! You are breaking us apart. How can I trust any words you say from now on? Just go LA, Zayn. You can start packing when we go home as you leave in a week, tomorrow we need to go with Jack and Val so we enrol the kids in the private child care" I was about to open the door but he put his hand on it and lock it making me stuck with my back to the door and him looking at me.

"Zayn, open the door I need to feed Al" His eyes were bloodshot with crying "I love you" I felt tears coming down as he said, "Say it!" He whispered hugging me and I immediately hugged him "I love you, a lot. You need to change or I have to do that I don't want to do" He pulled back with eyes wide, "No! You can't leave me. I change for us for our girl" I nodded and kissed his cheek, "Hopefully you do change" And with that, I unlocked the door and went to grab Aaleyha so I could feed her.

"You okay?" I looked at the lads and girls "Hopefully I will be" I said sitting down "Mama, Baba" I looked at Aaleyha and saw her looking at Zayn, "Baba" She put her hands out for her him to pick her up "Here I take her and I feed her" I sat up and passed her to him "Jack can you feed Mason?" He nodded at Valentina and Tar grabbed three glasses and a bottle of wine, "We're gonna start the bonfire, come Yas" I kissed Aaleyha's cheek and went out with the girls, Tar shooting a look for the boys so they talk to Zayn.