SHE!

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I was left shocked in the middle of the kitchen with tears falling down my face. I know that I overdid my schedule and did not give time to my family but I had no other choice cause I was trying to do the best of it until I changed only for important photoshoots, red carpets and fashion shows.

If I make that change, I would only be able to work on the tasks that I agree to, rather than the ones assigned to me. This is because if I move up to that level where I would be a top one.

I wiped my tears, walked to my laptop and sat down on the chair to see the email that I just received. I saw that I could take the rest week off until the day after Aaliyah's graduation so I closed it and sat up, turned off the lights and ran upstairs to Aaliyah's room.

I opened it slowly, "Can I join?" I whispered looking at them, "She's dozing off" I walked to Aaliyah and lay next to her on the other side, Rihno shifted a bit but didn't wake up. "Mummy?" I looked at her and kissed her head "I will always be here no matter what, after today I won't lose you" She looked at Zayn and back to me, "I love you" And with that, she went off to sleep.

Zayn stood up, turned off her TV, kissed her head and walked out of the room. I kissed her head and did the same following him to our room but saw him grabbing his phone and charger "Where are you going?" He looked at me "Guest room" I grabbed his hand but he removed it stopping by the door, "No, Zayn, please can we talk?" He turned around took a deep breath and closed the door.

"What do you want to talk about?" He sat the phone and charger down on the cabinet and crossed his hands, "About how you are acting like a single woman that you don't have no one? Did you think I wouldn't know about the lunch breaks with all the alcohol?" I just stared at him, "I didn't say anything 'cause you deserve to take a cocktail cause fuck, we are still young but not going to work and tell me you are working late when you are out, again, for dinner! And coming home smelled of alcohol which we are supposed to try for another child" He walked closer and I just stared at him with tears coming down.

"Why? Why all of a sudden all these lying and sneaking around, you think that cause the paparazzi won't publish a picture of you I wouldn't know?" He removed his hands from crossing "So, explain! explain why you are lying 'cause I never in my life said you can't go out you deserve it but there are two ways" He said shrugging leaning by the wall and waiting for me to speak.

I took a deep breath "I didn't tell you to cause after London and the way that we spend time together I have decided to only do modelling for important events, photoshoots and fashion shows so I sent an email while we were in the UK to tell them that I will be focusing on my family and that you are my priority" I wiped my tears sniffing "They accepted and due I had a lot of important events they made everything together and if I don't do that then I won't be titled as a top model and be able to do what I told them. I did go out for lunch and dinner but they were meetings part of work and no I didn't drink alcohol they were nonalcoholic cause I know that we are going to try for another child!" I walked to him to grab his hands which surprisingly he accepted and didn't pull them away.

"I have a week off before the Met Gala and my Fashion Show, maybe we could go out? Just me and you while Aaliyah is at school, we could go to a spa or even just stay here" He removed his hand and kissed my cheek "I'm going to sleep we'll see in the morning" He grabbed the phone and charger, opened the door and left to the guest room.

I grabbed my PJs to take a long shower and after I was ready I decided to call the girls, they all picked up after a few rings.

"Hey! Long time no see, bitch" I chuckled putting my knees closer so I could rest my neck on top of them, "I know and I am sorry Zayn mentioned you went with Max to LA and you Tar went to your family. Valentina, I know we came and left after a few" I took a deep breath seeing them alone cause the kids must have been sleeping and Max must be getting ready cause Rowana was changing. "Jack is on the phone with Zayn, I think the lads joined" I saw Valentina opening a door and heard Jack talking "Are you on the phone with the lads?" Taryn burst out laughing cause of the way she asked him which made Rowana go check on Max.

We didn't see Jack's face but from the look, Valentina knew that we fought and the other's had noticed. She closed the door "What happened?" Taryn asked and I explained everything apart from the trying for another child, "I know I messed up, I didn't even talk to my dad or mother fuck! Not even give time to my daughter" I sobbed which made the girls shocked, "The way she ran to Zayn when she heard us yelling and after I went to her room to maybe talk to her but she only said 'I love you' and slept, Zayn is in the guest room. He has the right to be angry and I went way over and forgot my own life" We continued for a bit more telling me what I could do that maybe help and after we hung up.

Time was almost midnight and I couldn't sleep. Earlier I texted my mother and Dad a message after I hung up with the girls to which they replied and said that I didn't have to apologise and they would come over for dinner on Friday which is in two days. They talk but do not get together way and believe it or not I still haven't met my siblings, yet. I grabbed my phone and decided to text Zayn, maybe he was still up.

To: Hubby xoxo

Are you up?...

I pressed sent and stood up from the bed, put on my slippers and housecoat and decided to go check on him.

Slowly I opened the door but he was asleep his back facing mine so I closed it, and went to check on Aaliyah after I went downstairs to make a cup of tea. After the tea was ready I sat down on the couch, turned on the TV on Netflix and put on the first movie that came on.

"I'm still up" I jumped and looked behind me seeing Zayn leaning by the wall "You scared the shit out of me!" He laughed and walked closer to the couch, "I thought you were sleeping 'cause I came into the room" He shrugged still standing up, "I was reading the message but heard you so I pretend to be sleeping now why don't you go to bed?" I shrugged sitting up and walking to the sink so I could wash my mug "I couldn't sleep knowing that we were fighting and I know that It's my fault" He walked to me and kissed me just like that shutting me from talking.

"Just jump so we can go upstairs, I missed my wife" He whispered and that's what we did from angry sex to a romantic one.