I Can See You, My Love

Chapter 15

I CAN SEE YOU MY LOVE 15

TIMOTHY

Tuloy tuloy ang naging gamutan ko sa aking psychiatrist hindi naging madali ang proseso dahil hindi lang naman sa gamot nadadaan ang mental health it takes a lot of time to fully recover but  never comes in mind to give up that someday i may be free.

Sa lumipas na mga buwan wala akong ibang ginawa kundi medication, school at pag bisita kay Maya. Para malibang din ako, my psychiatrist recommend me to do what makes me happy like hobbies para daw mas lalong bumilis ang proseso ng paggaling ko so i did. I started painting whenever i feel to do it and all of my paintings comes from my memories of Maya. When i started to lift my hand and paint i much feel better.

Nasa garden ako ng bahay habang hinahanda ang gagawin ko. Pinaayos ulit namin ang garden sa loob ng bahay at pinalagyan ng maraming bulaklak. Dito ko naisip gawin ang susunod kong obra.

"All set up!"

Isang malaking painting board ang binili ko dahil maganda ang ipipinta ko dito. As usual I wear a jumper and a tshirt to paint.

I started painting.  Masaya kong ipinipinta ang taong nasa isip ko ang mga ngiti niyang hindi ko malilimutan. Ang suot ko ay puno na rin ng pinta at ang dalawa kong kamay pati na rin siguro ang mukha ko. Lumipas ang ilang oras natapos ko na ang ipininta ko inabot pa ako ng hapon dahil nga malaki ito.

"That's.. that's the beautiful smile of Maya."

I painted the last smile I've ever seen on Maya's face. I remember how beautiful it was, she was smiling at me while the sunset's light hitting her and surrounded by beautiful flowers.

Pinagmasdan ko ang aking ipininta and i was like gazing at real Maya as if i go back to the time where i last seen her smile.

"You're so beautiful My Love.." i smiled.

Napaupo na lang ako sa pagod pero hindi pa rin inaalis ang tingin doon. I was mesmerized by her beauty again.

"It's beautiful, Timothy."

Napatingin ako sa nagsalita and it was dad nakangiti itong pinagmasdan ang ipininta ko kasunod niya si Theo at Manang Fe na manghang mangha sa ginawa ko.

"Kuya there's a place that will be held art convention why don't you try to display that." Ani Theo.

"I agree. Just say so I'll talk to their management." Nakatangong saad ni dad.

Napatingin ako sa kanila, actually hindi pumasok sa isip ko na idisplay sa kahit anong art convention ang pinta ko.

"Thank you."

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I arrive at the art convention  wearing a simple clothes. White long sleeve, nude pants and a pair of shoes. While I was going in i feel so much gaze on me did i drew to much attention? Do i look like alone? Maybe in their eyes i was alone but all along I'm not. I'm with her in my heart. As i look at the people around they have someone beside them, their lover I guess.

I was standing upfront of my painting while holding a bouquet of white flowers. Maraming tao ang palakad lakad at hindi malaman kung saan titingin dahil sa dami ng nakadisplay na mga obra sa art convention. Sa baba ng nakadisplay na pinta ko ay nakalagay doon ang itinawag ko dito.

Adieu Beau Sourire which means Farewell beautiful smile in french and i even wrote a short peom to it.

In a field of blooms, where colors collide,
There's a beautiful girl, filled with love inside.
Her heart was captivated by petals so pure,
For she had a weakness, white tulips, for sure.