I combed my long coffee brown hair and fished out the cosmetic bag sitting inside my bag. Using my favourite shade of lipstick, I fixed the fading color on my lips. Nag retouch ako ng make-up nang hindi nililingon ang pinanggagalingan ng mga hikbi.
It was just Isaah crying his eyes out, trying to guilt trip me from slapping the shit out of him earlier after what he did.
Sucks for him, sold out ang pasensya ko ngayon.
"Are you done?" mataray kong tanong. Pinalobo niya ang pisngi at hindi sumagot. Namumula at may hand print ko ang isa niyang pisngi, napalakas kasi talaga ang sampal ko sa kanya kanina. Hays, eh kung hindi naman kasi siya gago.
Iputok ba naman sa loob ko without my permission! Mabuti nalang at uminom ako kanina ng pills dahil balak ko naman talaga na payagan siya sa gagawin, reward ko for him because they won the competition. Pero paano nalang kung ordinary day 'to at hindi nga talaga ako nakainom ng pills?? Oh god, the consequences of his actions..
I'm sure he didn't skip science class because that's the subject where he got the highest mark. And common sense nadin..
Hindi niya naman siguro gugustuhin na magpaka-ama sa ganyan kamurang edad ano. Though I have no intention of letting him bear responsibilities sakali man na mabuntis niya ako. I have the money to raise the child.
"Sorry po. Hindi ko na uulitin." singhot ni Isaah. Poker face lang akong tumango, not taking him seriously. I've had enough for spoiled brats like him who do anything he wants without thinking, just like my brother, Blair.
"You're giving me trust issues, Isaah. Fix your attitude or I'll never talk to you again. Baka nga iyon talaga yung gusto mong mangyari. You want me to leave you alone? Fine. You can have your happy ending with your girlfriend now. I won't bother." pinag krus ko ang binti at matalim siyang tinignan. Of course I don't mean that. Medyo. Half half? Well, aaminin ko na I'm having fun with Isaah, but if he keep doing things I don't like, hindi malabo na iwanan ko nga siya sa ere. Hindi lang siya ang choice ko. Marami siyang kakompetensya. For example, isa na ang kaibigan niyang si Matthew. That kid is a looker too...
"What..?" Isaah paled at my statement.
"Kidding." I smiled. Not entirely, pero hayaan na natin para sa ikakapanatag ng loob niya. As much as possible kasi ay ayaw ko namang mapunta pa sa away ang araw na'to. This day is supposed to be special for him. Inikot ko ang manibela at pinokus ang mata sa daan.
"That's not a good joke." Isaah crossed his arms and threw his glance out the window.
"Fair enough. What you did earlier wasn't also good. It wouldn't even pass as a joke." I chuckled. Napunta ang atensyon niya sa kamay kong gumapang papunta sa kanyang hita. I caress the thin fabric of his jersey short. "Don't take it to heart, Isaah. I know that you like doing it raw, and I too, like it when I'm being filled by you. Pero bata ka pa, there's still a lot of things waiting for you out there. Kaya kapag makikipagtalik ka sa iba, always practice safe se—"
"What do you mean? Makipagtalik sa iba? I only want to do it with you!" kontra sakin ni Isaah. He's now fuming. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa aking kamay na ngayon ay nakakulong sa mga palad niya. Mahigpit ang pagkakahawak niya dito, sa sobrang higpit hindi ko alam kung dito pa ba ako titingin o sa mga mata niyang tila may kinikimkim na sakit.
Gusto ko sana itanong kay Isaah kung naririnig niya pa ba ang pinagsasabi niya. Anyone who has knowledge about our situation would probably curse us—maybe just me. Ni katiting ay walang tama. Relasyon sa pagitan ng guro at estudyante? Dalwampu't limang pumatol sa menor de edad? Idagdag mo pa na inencourage ko siyang mag cheat sa kasintahan. Kung hindi ba naman ako ang pinaka salot sa buhay niya, ewan ko nalang kung sino pa.
