My Mafia

6. Wat - I hate it so much

He look hot even with all the bandage. Now all the contestant and the mafia group are gather at the main area. Again we stand at the same place. But the differ is, everyone is standing behind us.
Everyone look scare and injured.  Now we are at the main event after a long ceremony. With the power i have, i now announce kinn as the next leader, my father proudly announce. We can hear scream and yelling every where. I look at phi mile who look bored. He must be really strong because since he joint the macth, he never lost. I have so much respect for him now. I promise to kill him, if i lost metawin, but that bunny just smile and laugh happily with luke when i open my eyes. He keep boasting how he escape and how he help phi bible. I cant wait to see phi joss. Only him  Can control that stupid bunny. 

"I want Sarawat, hurting him is as the same as you hurt me and i will never compromise on this" phi kinn calmly announce his request. I cant believe my ears and eyes. Is he crazy. I look at my papa who now cry and hug my dad. Both look so happy. I still in confusion when my dad bring me to the stage.
As part of the comittee, i will follow the request my dad said and let me stand beside phi kinn. I can see how , our sub group look so angry and some of the group look happy. Are they try to protect me from our own group i ask myself. This is wrong. I dont need any protection. I am strong. I am angry but i cant do anything.  My family don't say anything but they look happy. They even enjoy after party after that announcement.

Thank you mile, papa beam gently hug phi kinn. I know when papa call his real name mean he really thankful for phi kinn. He hug and pat my back. It really scary , uncle pha said. I am really scare he ask for gold or anything else, uncle pha said gratefully. Thank you son, thank you for your understanding,  my dad said and hug phi kinn. I know i can trust you, that why i stop your dad  to force you. I know i will never wrong,  thank you he said again with glitter eyes. Daddy, i call my dad when he keep hugging phi kinn and ignore me. Honestly i never share my papa and daddy to anyone. So its felt weird when they hug phi kinn. Base on my observation, they know each other because my dad will never allow anyone   to hug papa beam.  Are we done here, i ask my dad. Yes baby, papa so scare, papa beam said and hug me again. I know this drama will not end easily. I gently hug him back. Papa, i am hungry, i said try to stop him from crying. I also hurt, i said. That sentence make , my dad, my papa and uncle pha worrily look at me. Everyone checking on me except for phi kinn who now leaving our tent with his friend. He dont even talk with  me after the announcement.  We need to go first, phi pha. Bright is tired papa beam said and look at uncle pha. I know my dad cant refuse his husband. Uncle pha just nod and hug me again. Take care bright, he said and also leave our tent.

Its already a few months after my debut in mafia world. I slowly get involve with my group activity. Honestly its hard for me to adjust my self to this new world. Beside i really cant do anything with my papa beam and daddy. They keep preventing me to do anything. I am a bit dissapointed but i cant angry with them especially my papa because he love me so much. He will cry, everytime i involve in the geng activity.  The family cold war are getting worse. My uncle keep questioning my identity and blame my dad for hiding me. Since my debut i never see phi kin in the underworld.
I dont know why, some how i keep on checking on him. He is successful young business man.  If i dont see here, i will never know he is part of mafia world. His duality is really real. Like i cant trace his business man aura here, i also cant find any mafia aura at upper world. He gracefully leading the economy and keep receiving many award.
Again, i ask win who now eating his favorite ice cream. What, he ask me. I show him phi mile new scandle. Within a few month he have been involved with many artist and celebrity.  Beside being the richest guy, he also become the most wanted bachelor. Its make me really angry. I dont know why, but i felt hurt when i read about him.  Are you okay, win ask me when he look at me who a bit down. I just nod and leave him alone.

After i reach home, i cant hold my tears anymore. I cant believe he act like he dont know me and gently escort his new scandle. He just smile to metawin who greet him. I dont even wait for win and leave with my man. I dont want to stay any longer at phi mile company event. I am really angry with myself because i never check about my brand. I really trust my manager. What is wrong with me. Why i am too attached to his claim before. Why i trust words from someone like him. That just to fulfill our parent wish. I am so stupid. This is the last time i cry for phi mile. What ever he said dont mean anything to him. He never want me. It just for my protection.  I wish i can change the reality. If i could, i wish i never see him before.

What wrong baby, my papa gently ask when he see me crying. I quickly hug him. I shake my head and hug him tight.
I dont reply to my papa and keep crying.
I hate this weak side of me. I hate it so much, adjusting to mafia world already hard , i need to gain respect and be accepted. Now , this. I hate it so much.
I hate when I am weak when it involved my love one.

Thank you for reading ❤️
07.08.24