My Mafia

8.Bright - He cry a lot

Baby, my papa call me softly. I try to smile at him. I can see tears in his eyes. He cant even say a word and leave me alone. I know he must be crying again. I felt really sorry for him. But i really cant control myself. I really hate when someone connected my name with phi mile. I really hate it so much. I hate liar, i hate pretentious people and i hate phi mile.  I touch at my broken lips.
I slowly knock my papa room. I dont hear his response. So i slowly open the door and walk to him. I can see my papa laying on his bed and use his hand to hide his eyes. Papa, i call him softly. I am sorry, i said. I am getting scare when my papa dont response to me. He never do that. I am his baby. I slowly lie beside him and hug him like i used to do when i was a kid. Papa, bright is sorry i said again and hug him tight.  When he dont reply i keep hugging and wait for him.  I felt really bad and scare.
He still prepare our dinner as usual. He just lost his smile and very quiet. After prepare the food he quietly leave me and my dad. I look at my dad, but he just slowly eating. I really dont know what to do.  My papa never treat me like this.
Daddy, i call my dad. He look at me with his regretful eyes. What happen to you baby he ask with red eyes and leave me alone. I now silently crying at the table. I really break my parent heart.  I am bad son. I promise, after this hell ring, i will be their baby again. I just need to split myself with phi mile name. I try hard to prove myself.

I look at my opponant who now lifeless on the ground. All the noise before become quiet. With difficulty i pull the knife on my chest. Everyone expexting me to die today. After 5 non stop fight, i think i reach my limit. But this is hell ring, i cant quit if i want too.  Bright, i heard someone call me loudly. I can see phi mile pushing the guy at the ring gate before i fell down and see black.

Where is my papa,  i ask win and phi joss. Both just keep quiet. Its rare to see the bunny this quiet. Papa is not feeling well, he will come later my dad said. No, papa cant even sleep if i am sick. He cant even felt tired for me. Daddy, can you call papa, i slowly plead my dad. I felt guilty and worry.  Dont worry baby, take a rest first. How are you bright uncle pha greet me. I nod and look for phi mile. Again he not here and forget about me. I must be dreaming about him before. It already 3 days but my papa still not visit me here. I cant hold it anymore. I need to find him. I need to ask for his forgiveness. When i see luke sleeping soundly on the sofa, i quickly change my ward cloth. I need to go home.  When i try to escape, i see my papa and happily waiting for him. I know he will not leave me and cant be angry with me. I cant wait to hug him. I sit on my bed and wait for him. I am so eager and nearly shout to call my papa who walk straight pass my room , he did not come into my room. I quickly open the door and see how he get into the room beside me.  He must wrongly remember my room number. I happily walk to the room to call my papa.

Is he awake, i hear my papa ask. Its all my fault. If i dont ask him to protect bright, all of this will not happen, i am sorry he said clear and calm. But it sound too calm for me. What is he talking about. I quickly open the door. What going on, i ask. I can see uncle pha, my dad and phi mile friend sit quietly here. Bright, my dad look shock and quickly come to me. You should rest, let go he said. I look at phi mile who now sleeping soundly. Then, i look at my papa who look so distance. I push my dad and hug my papa. Papa, i call him slowly. He dont reply to me and not hug me back. Papa, I am scare, i said sadly. Again, i dont hear anything from my papa. Mile need rest, lets go my dad pull me from my papa and bring me to my room.  I can see luke, win and phi joss waiting for me at the door.

No, its not true, i yell at metawin. I look at phi joss and luke. Tell me it not true, i beg them. I keep crying and tantrum. I push all the things on the table. Baby please , my dad try to calm me. Stop, suddenly my papa said. I look at him and run to him. I hug him tight.  Papa, i cry sadly. Again he did not hug me. He hate me now. Papa, hug me please, i beg slowly. I am not your papa , my papa said calmly. Beam, i heard my dad shout. He never call his name. No, you are my papa i said and try to hug him again. No, i am not.  You wont do this, if i am your papa. If she still alive, your mother will raise you better. I failed to raise you he said and quickly leave my room. Take care of him my dad said and run to his husband.  Win gently hug me. Phi joss and luke clean the room. I and win now hugging on my bed. Dont worry, we just need to wait. Phi mile is strong, he will wake up win said slowly. I look at him and he nod to me. I still cant believe phi mile fight with 33 opponant before my cousin shot him. This is trap. They purposely challege him in the hell ring. Phi mile walk into the hell ring to safe me. I am glad he manage to kill my cousin. And all of this are my fault.

I quietly sit beside phi mile. I look at my papa who come to visit phi mile everyday. I already discharge from my ward, but i never leave hospital and sit here waiting for phi mile.  Not once my papa look at me. I am so scare. I miss him so much. After he help to clean phi mile, he quietly leave me alone with phi mile. Again i cry, papa really ignore me. He really hate me now. I am too scare to hug him. He dont love me anymore. No one love me anymore. I go to phi mile and hug him. I am alone now, no one love me, please wake up phi, you promise to take care of me , i said. Why are you crying, suddenly phi mile ask and caress my hair. I think i stop breathing. I look at phi mile and quickly call a doctor. Now everyone in phi mile room. Waiting for his check up. Everyone look happy. I dont dare to say a word. I still can see how my papa push me and hug phi mile. He cry a lot for phi mile.

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07.08.24