My Mafia

18.Bright- I am okay

Bright

I look at my calm daddy and crying papa. Since phi mile visit us last week, my papa cant stop crying. I know they can't do anything.  I am still confuse on why suddenly phi mile want to claim me and getting married. I thought everything already settled after fire ring.
And the best part is, I never felt this calm before. I am ready for anything.  Maybe I already prepare myself since the race before.  I let my dad handle my papa. Even on the day my family send me to phi mile house, I still felt calm and just accept my destiny.

After sending out parent home, I start to worry when phi mile suddenly lift me and bring me to his room. I know I cant avoid this but not this early. I really scare and shocked.  I really dont know how to response to phi mile. End of the day, I just cry because of pain  and pleasure. Luckily he try to be as gentle as he could. I cry hard but I also felt love. The way he touch me and kiss me bring so much pleasure to me. He gently kiss my forehead. Are you okay baby, he ask me after he do me. I am so shy and in pain. But I refuse to show him how weak I am. I just nod and let him clean both of us. Since its really painful and tiring, I know I sleep after he put me in his bed.

I try to not disturb phi mile. Beside my fiance, he is our leader. But when I try to move I cant felt my legs and my back are in pain badly. I cant help but moaning desprately.  I try my best to keep quiet but phi mile suddenly wake up and I can feel how his junior getting hard. I somehow understand what he want. I try to plea him but he become more weird. No, I try to refuse but I really cant fight phi mile. He keep saying sorry but he really do me hard. I still sore from our last night activities. It's very painful but again I also can't stop moaning because of pleasure. While being intimate, I cant control myself more and let phi mile do anything he want. I really cant fight him anymore. I dont really know what happening .

Again I open my eyes and try to move. I bite my own lips. I dont want to disturb phi mile. Baby, don't move phi suddenly said and touch my head. I look at him worrily. Will he do me again. I am really scare. I just look at him. Dont be scare, I wont do it again, he said. I can see guilty in his eyes. I slowly nod. I let him help me the whole day. I am not fit to handle myself.  Luckily he is gentle enough. I never thought he will treat me like this. Base on our previous history I know he is not gentleman. He is mafia in and out. I already prepare my mind and body for his rough life and attitude.  I felt so grateful for him to try his best to be a gentleman.

Let's get married, he suddenly said while waiting for me to finish my food. I look at him with my big eyes. Why so sudden.  I am not ready for this. Not once I believe that he will marry me. I thought he just make an excuse to claim me as a prize. I thought he only want to use me. I don't see how will he commit to the relation. He is free spirit and powerful guy. I experience it myself before.  He dont blink his eyes when he push me into fire ring. I also know how the impact if I refuse his order. Honestly I think I like him,but I don't want any legal relation with him. I choose to be his reward instead of his husband because I think I can survive when he leave me later. There is no love in our relation. If he decide to leave me, no one can stop him, not even our family.
Can we not, I ask him slowly. He look at me with cold eyes. I am also trained since I am young. I dont scare of his temper. Why not, he ask me coldly. You don't need to marry me, I will do anything you want, I don't plan to marry anyone, I said slowly. What are you talking about, he ask me loudly while holding my chin roughly. I may be look timid but I am not scare. You hurt me, i said. I am your prize, you can claim me without any restrictions.  You don't need to marry me, may be when you are bored with me, we can split nicely, it's easier,  I said calmly. He look at me coldly and leave me alone. I know I was right. I just can't understand the anger in his eyes. I am giving him the best situation.  Why he look so angry.

It's already 2 weeks. After our confrontation,  he suddenly dissapear. 
It's really hurt but I keep living like usual. After 3 days I manage to handle myself. I feel grateful toward our helper.
They help me a lot. Now like always I felt reluctant to go home. No one there for me, only our helper. Thank you I said to my helper and quickly go to our room. I need to help my team tonight.  I quickly getting ready and run to my car. I can hear my helper call me, but I just ignore.

My dad running to me, he look so worried. Dont worry, your son is strong I said. He nod but still check on my body. Are you okay he ask me while look at my arms cut. I quickly nod and pull him to the office. Dont tell papa, I said quickly. Why are you here, my dad ask. What do you mean why I am here,  this is our group, of course I will be here I said. I look at my dad strangely. What is in his mind. You are not supposed to be here. Where is mile, he ask me again.  Dont worry, he dont care about something like this, he is too busy for someone like me I said calmly.  My dad look into my eyes. Are you okay baby, he slowly ask. I just chuckle and hug him. I am okay, if not how can I fight like today I ask him.

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11.08.24