My Mafia

9.Mile - I am speechless

I run as fast as i could. This is my fault. I should focus on him. I cant breath when i see him fell down in the hell ring. Let us out i said firmly. Hell ring! Hell ring! Hell ring! They keep shouting. I know they will not let us go without fight. They are waiting for me to get into hell ring. I try to finish them as soon as i could because bright are injured. But bright cousin cant hold it anymore and shoot me. I can see how bible shoot the door keeper and i manage to shoot bright cousin before i fell down.

I thought i was dreaming. I keep hearing a sad voice. I try to reach but i cant. But today its very clear. I slowly walk to the voice and when i open my eyes, i see someone crying beside me. I really cant recogzize him, i just want to comfort him. I finally open my eyes because of his pitiful cry.

After being check by medic team, i look around and i cant see bright. He was here before. Where is bright, i ask. Now everyone look around and get worry except for uncle beam. Its really weird. I expect him to be the first one to run to bright. But he just sit here quietly. We will find him, joss said. All of them running to find bright.

After a while everyone leave me except for my dad. Are you okay, he ask me. I just nod and look at him. He look tired. He is a father after all. He cant hide his worry. I never see his teary eyes before. Dad, i call him. What do you want, he quickly ask. I love you, i said. My dad look at me. Thank you for survive he said slowly. I wont leave you. So you need to be with this bastard all your life, i said and laugh. My dad just chuckle. You can be as bastard as you want, but stay a live he said and touch my head dearly. I will dad, i said. What wrong with uncle beam. He look so distance i ask my dad. Dont worry, it just father and son quarel. He just hurt because he love bright so much, my dad said.

Uncle, i slowly call uncle beam when he visit me again. What do you need son, he ask me. He look too calm. Uncle, dont blame bright because of me, i said sincerely. Dont worry, but thank you for your understanding ,he said. Where is he, why i cant see him  i ask. I dont know, uncle beam said slowly. This is so wrong. I can see he is hurting here. I will discharge tomorrow, i said. Thank god , he said and pass me a fruit. I really cant ask much. He look so cold. When uncle beam go back home, i immediately call jeff. I ask him about uncle beam and bright. Why, i ask jeff. I dont know, uncle beam just close himself to bright, he said bright is not his son, he is failed as a father jeff explain. Have anyone see bright, i ask jeff again.
He is safe jeff said. I will see him tomorrow , i said.

What are you doing, i ask and hurrily help bright. He look so messy. Leave me alone, he yell at me. Enough, i yell loudly. That make bright stop and look at me angrily. But what i can see is pain.
Stop this, tell me the problem, i will help you, i said sincerely. Go, i dont need you. Leave me alone , he said and run to his room. I remember this house. Its their old mansion that ujcpe forth and his wife live before. I look at the bottles and tins. He must be drinking all day. I ask the helper to clean up and prepare the dinner. He wont eat khun mile, the helper said. He just drink since few days ago. We are worried the helper said. Its okay, please prepare dinner, i will make sure he eat , i said. While waiting for the food , i call my dad. I ask his opinion and he regretfully said, even uncle forth dont know what wrong with the two. Uncle beam also confined himself in the room. But uncle forth know that, his husband is hurt.
I slowly knock his door. When i dont get any response, i slowly open the door. I cant believe my eyes when i see his room. Its full with bottle and tins. Are you planing to die , i ask him angrily.
He look at me and laugh. Stop pretending, no one here, you dont need to pretend here, he said calmly. Its really confusing. What wrong with this spoil baby. Enough bright, you need to eat, i said try to calm down. Leave, he said coldly. No, not until you eat, i said firmly. Just go, like you always do, he said softly.
No one will blame you, i just dont know how to break the promise yet. Give me time, i will lift your burden when i win the race, he said calmly. What are you talking about , i ask him. I wish, i was dead at the race. I wont feel this hurt if i died, he said again. Stop this nonsense, you need to eat , i said firmly and try to pull him. Dont you dare touch me, he suddenly yell loudly. Dont touch me, he said again. I will, and i have the right, i said. I really dont want to mention how he practically belong to me now. I dont want he felt uncomfortable. I want he live like a normal person happily. I just offer protection for him. I have no choice beside claiming him in front of the organization. No, you are not, you leave me after you  claim me in front of everyone. You treat me like a useless prize. You take me as a joke. People take me as a joke , he scream at me with a tears. Dont say something if you dont mean it, he said again now crying . I am speechless.

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08.08.24