Harder Than You Know

Sorrow

It was all a blur to me, Rob was put on a stretcher and wheezing hard ot three in the morning. I hopped in the back of the ambulance and squeezed his hand but he didn't even open his eyes his skin was pale and he was limp. When we got to the hospital I couldn't go back with Rob as he was in critical condition I'm so scared he actually looked dead. After a while I went back and stroked Rob's hair and gave him a kiss on the lips he didn't move. "Mrs. Ortiz", the doctor came to me after a while. "I'm sorry to say but your husband Robert had a stroke and...," he trailed off. " and what," I could already feel a cold tear rip down my face. " He's going to die", the doctor said. I broke down right there in the waiting room just letting it out I screamed out his name. Within a second I realized how foolish I was being and ran to his room. His eyes fluttered opened as I entered and I embraced him in a hug I could feel my tears stain his skin. I kissed his neck making him moan a little and squirm but I soon start crying, he wraps a arm around me and just whispers in my ear. After a while Rob is unconscious again and I go out in the waiting room and I called the kids. Slash, Elliot, and Mark come to the waiting room within a hour and a half I led them back to Rob and we gathered around the bed. By time we got to Rob he was already dead the kids looked scared as their dead dad laid on the bed , motionless. We all cried and gathered around Rob and cried no one wanted to lose Rob he was so nice. After ,e and the kids mourned I called the escape the fate guys that Rob has passed away. Craig was on the phone and seemed shocked and I could hear him cry quietly," I'll pay for his funeral your family shouldn't have to pay as you already lost too much," thank you", I sobbed. Two days later escape the fate, ,me, slash, ,,mark, and Elliot, and Rob's parents as well as some fans attended his funeral. I kissed him one last time shivering from how cold his body was then they lowered him into the ground. It's been a year since then and every day feels like a struggle and I just want to die so I can be with him. But then I remember what he whispered to me," y/n I have betrayed the kids by going to die, please don't die and let yourself get caught up in the sadness. You must keep going because the kids need you they need a loving, supportive adult in their lives and who better than their mother. Look ,y love, everyone dies one day you'll die and when it's your time we'll be together again.," So I refuse to give up and when the time is right I know I'll be with Rob again but for now I have a job to do.