《Stardew Valley》Never Say Never - Alex X Sebastian

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"I'll tell you everything, Sebastain." He said.

"I don't want you to force yourself if-"

"No, no, I'm not forcing myself. I want to tell you." He insisted.

"Of- of course." I nodded, more to myself than him.

"Today I got a letter from my dream college. I wasn't waitlisted; I was rejected." He huffed, "I knew my grades were no good but I still applied. Then when I read those words, 'we do not think you are a good match for our school'-- reality hit. It-- it was like my whole world came crashing down all because of a piece of paper."

He looked to the ground, hands clasped in his lap. He did not dare to be his usual jocular self, he also did not dare to look me in the eye. At no point when he spoke would he look at me, only to the ground.

"What... what do you mean you knew you'd be rejected? I- I thought your grades were great!" I said.

He finally looked up at me, a guilty expression on his face; I don't think I ever saw him so guilty.

"No... I was scared to say it so I just hid my grades from your parents. I knew what they would say. I... I barely even got to graduate." He chuckled a bit.

His face was flushed and his eyes were full of gloom.

"I don't-- I'm..."

"Theres no need to say anything. I just didn't want to seem like a disappointment in front of your parents-- in front of you." He said.

My hands gripped the grass beside me, I'm sure nearly pulling it out.

"Alex... I don't care about your grades or anything like that. It doesn't matter to me. But if you can't trust me enough to tell me and lie--" I stopped talking.

I lied to him once before as well; I have no right to talk about lying. Its not just his problem, its mine as well.

"I'll admit, it's hard for me to trust people; I don't trust you fully yet. It's not because I hate you or something, I just..." he looked at me with fear.

Just why would he not trust me? I trusted him fully. But it was true that I didn't trust him at first as well, so was I being a hypocrite? At the moment I didn't think of that.

"Why can't you trust me? I don't understand, have I done something wrong?" I asked.

He had a surprised look on his face, "no, no, of course not! It's not because of you, it's because of me!"

"Alex... why do we lie to each other?" I asked.

He gave me a concerned look, "well... I think that we just-- I don't know."

"See, we don't know. Do you know why you don't trust me?" I asked.

"The reason I don't trust you is... well... I don't know the full reason, but I think I might know part of it." He breathed, "my father, he wasn't a good person. Not to me and not to my mother. He would... well-- call me useless and things like that. My mother died from an illness a while ago, so thats why I live with my grandparents now."

I felt horrible. I mean-- how could I complain about my parents and yet... he had to endure much worse? I felt like I was the smallest person in the world; no wonder he didn't trust people!

"I know it won't mean much... but I'm truly sorry. For saying such horrible things about my family without knowing-- I shouldn't have said them at all even though I didn't know. But... my parents see you as a part of the family, I know that. So whenever you need someone to talk to, my family and I can help you out." I said.

He gave me a weak smile, not out of spite-- more out of fatigue.

"I appreciate it, I won't lie to them anymore, I'll tell them the truth." He stood up, "and I especially won't lie to you, not anymore."

"Me neither." I said as he helped me up. He gave me another smile.

"It's late, we better go back." He said, putting on a helmet.

I agreed and started up the motorcycle; I got on with feelings of concern.

On the way back I didn't know how I felt. Alex told me so many things it was hard to register. I'm sure that there's more he needs to tell me in the future-- there's going to be more I need to tell him in the future. But we haven't reached that yet, and thats alright. We'll both take our time, for as long as it takes.

(Cool authors note!!)

So, it's the end. Mannnn this fanfic. I have a couple of things to say lol.

During the end of this fanfic I was super critical with my writing-- even now I'm looking at it and grimacing in discontent at the whole thing. Maybe it's because I never dealt with such serious topics in my writing before that I find it unfit to my style of writing. I'm not sure... all I know is that I feel unsatisfied.

In a sense-- I guess I'm a bit caught up in my old style of writing. That was when I created stories with my friends and joked around-- none of it being serious in any way. But I want to move on from that.

One thing is... I don't like how fast they get together! If written well it can go perfectly-- but I am certainly not an expert at writing! It was plain stupid to me how I wrote it this way...

Anyway, If you've read through this whole series thank you so much! If you've followed, voted, commented, thank you as well!