I feel so lonely.
And no, not because I live alone and like to keep to myself. I'm often a victim of loneliness. Especially before I feel sleepy. Like sleep is the one thing that stops me from thinking of how lonely I am. It's even far worse when I see others being happy with each other's company. Sometimes, I feel like letting all my tears flow out is all I can do. But I don't see it that way, even if it is an option.
But what was I expecting?
I have little to no social life outside of school and neighbors. I'm working on myself to a better version everyday. I'm young and I haven't found a good footing in life yet. I'm a male too, so that's a given. Being lonely was part of the job description.
Sometimes though, I see myself as the problem of my own loneliness. I never had siblings si I don't even know hot to cater another person existing in my space. I tend to be overly helpful to those who don't acknowledge let alone want my help. I talk too much when I'm around people I feel comfortable around, which has led to people pushing me away, or hating me for saying something remotely out of line to them. I have severe trust issues to a point I can't trust anyone with the simplest of tasks to be done right. It's usually a 50 /50 chance to me, tilting towards the negative. I tend to write or make up scenarios to escape my feeling of being lonely.
Wow. I truly am lonely.
Well, to accept the truth is first step to a better self.
I just wish it wasn't like so.
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